Hi all..
This one started almost at the peak of my kundalini awamening, unfolding slowly throught the years...
At first it was just small sensations of something cold..
Then one day as i was sitting in front of my pc,i felt it all over me.. Like an invisible fan in front of my body....
My first thought was '' oh boy,another challenge?game over. I have no power left to stand against anything....
So i ignore it,went along with the game i was playing...
The moment i pulled back my attention from it,it become stronger,until i could feel it all inside my room....
I decided to go for a fight..
I lied to my bed and asked it
'' why are you here,and what do you want from me''
It responded with
' 'i want to show you how it feels like to live without ego
Do you want me to show you?
I said yes,go ahead....
Suddenly i felt something that i can' t find the correct words to describe...
Something like a heavy weight was lifted from me,and now i was in a state of peace,feeling light like a feather and my consiousness expanded far away from my room...
As i was enjoying the whole thing that lasted for almost half an hour,i felt something was getting in the middle... Inwas returning to my previous state of fear and anxiety,receiving this message....
'' Seriously now?They want to bypass your defences in order to manipulate you.
Why you trust them''?
And part of me agreed with it..
What exactly happened i'm not sure... It was like a conflict with my higher and lower self...
The first one wanted me to go for the leap of faith,the second one being afraid of the unknown....
Anyway...
Back to the cold breeze now....
I googled kundalini and cold breeze and i found some stuff from others...
For me it gets triggered when i face east...
Also i requested my inner self and an angel from the east,to open the gates for me...
Now everytime i face east,i can feel it flowing in me...
Of course i asked for it...
What i think of this cold breeze...
Firstly,i think it's a male output...
Also when i asked my self to remove-destroy all evil entities,there was this cold breeze again kickin in.....
That's all for the moment..
And sorry for my typing mess.. I'm not good at all with it..
Update:
Seems like a water type of energy.
Thanks to a vision i had a month ago,things were unfolded for me in order to understand..
It has to do with the feminine side of things,kickin in to bring balance. When there is a need it gets triggered by it's own,but i can do that also. (consiously).
Update:
Still trying to figure out about the nature of this cool breeze...
Could it be a vayu? Or maybe something related with the water element....
I remember once, i asked a magiciwn to assist me, due to my awakening chaotic process... He did a tarot reading for me and three feminine cards appeared...
He did a spell on me and my house,in order to cleanse and balance things...
As long as the spell was running,i could feel the same cool breeze all over my house and upon me....
We left it running for almost 5 days.....
So,another clue about the cool breeze..
Update:
I can detect the flow mostly to the right side of my body and sometimes in the middle,but not to the left..
The left side of my body gets heated when i do energy work..Same with the left brain part.. I think it radiates heat.. I had put my left palm over this area,and i felt it...
Maybe that explains the mental chatter problem..
So we have heat in the left side,and cold to the right.
Also i remember one time i was playing around with directional currents and i went for the uppermost i could reach with my mind.... Above sahasrara...
What i felt was even colder... I almost went brrrrrr....what is this?
Also i noticed something about the solar plexus area...
When my stomach is empty,the energy sensations are far more vibrant.. When the system is bussy by processing foods,and especially non healthy foods,things are not so cool...
I've heard from others about digestive problems as well..
Now i can't wear perfumes or wash my hair with shampoo.. Perfumes trigger something like spastic colitis..
My system reacts to synthetic-chemical stuff.
Anyway...
Seems like there's something like an intelligence to the solar plexus area...
Not sure how to name it,but i can feel it's a big-central part of the system that if goes unbalanced,it triggers a domino effect that spreads even to my mental health...