I say other because the solution of long-term evolution goes against the grain of the society we live in.
The whole world is one huge Las Vegas so it's easy to be gluttonous instead of in balance. It's easy to be aggressive or lie when many around you do so.
You wake up you have to be rajasic to get going/be productive, and often at night you become tamasic to drown out all the nonsense of the world and get joy.
The time for sattvic activity has to be planned. Assuming you have any self control left for meditation or selfless service like at a soup kitchen after doing all you have to do for survival and so you can keep surviving.
I've tried somatic therapy/trauma release exercises for few years now if it works it works really really slow.
I'm trying herbal remedies right now I love milky oats and skullcap. Which can of course take years of taking if any brain progress happens due to them,
But beyond this and the average recommendations of sunlight/vit d, exercise, eat right, sleep.
I'm at a place where being kundalini damaged is my new norm. I fell from higher consciousness that I was in for months and I am unable to return 6 years later.
I've done brainscans and they show nothing. I've read Gopi Krishna's books and this kundalini expert worked in a political type of job improving the world and he meditated every damn day.
Bonnie Greenwell's books have been too plain jane for me.
As for Joan Harrigan... her retreat center has a 4 year long wait list plus few thousand dollar pricetag. I'll skip for now.
I can't even feel abandoned because most of humanity doesn't even know about this. I feel completely in the dark like one does with a rare issue.
I straight up wish I never experienced this. The world is not ready.
I've been left with migraines on my right side. I never experienced before this crash. I take the herb feverfew to help me get rid of them daily but I don't want to take things forever I just want to be better.
I'm in my late 20s so the lack of health "bounce back" is just well none of this clicks. I dont know what to do anymore, if anything can be done at all.
Anytime a religious Holiday comes around me all I can think is forget about becoming like Christ or Buddha etc your nervous system won't be able to handle it for too long unless you successfully live in a bubble and become self control royalty.
It may be possible that homeopathy can help balance things.
Plus i found that including the question "What do i really want". is very important to me.
When Kundalini was triggered within me there was a very strong longing that came in my
Heart. It was what i wanted all my life. It has helped me to keep going through all the
things you have mentioned. Still working towards this longing.
Hi Dean,
Sorry to hear about your frustrations. One thought that occurred to me is that you could be expecting too much! None of us, or very few, can maintain that higher consciousness beyond a certain period, but maybe that is not the point.
After that glimpse, or for you quite a long period, it seems then that we have to do the work of processing our self, our social conditioning and passed trauma, all that is preventing us from living in harmony with who we truly are......so that then we can in effect let that self go, or at least our total identification with it, experiencing ourselves as part of the One consciousness.
As part of this love, and service to others seem to be important components. It is not all about "us".
As commented on by other members (see Joe's link) it is trying to get ourselves out of the way....not building a new spiritual self.
Hope these thoughts are helpful.
Dean, perhaps the comments by several Kundalini Collective members may be helpful. See this post for their suggestions: https://www.kundalinicollective.org/forum-1/kundalini-discussion/kundalini-survival-guide
Great to read about the frustrations and challenges of Kundalini. When I say great, what I mean is, it is refreshing to read about the reality of Kundalini. If it helps as a mirror back, I too have felt and experienced many of the same things you have written about.
In its entirety from a cosmic and mystical experience to experiencing the shadows, I agree with your assessment that the human nervous system and psyche has to be able to handle all of these energies and then embody them. I’m not surprised that few people make it all the way through! I’m not going to sugarcoat my response and say the typical things about the marvellous Kundalini. But! You will be forever changed and like many others who write about their experiences, be assured that you are evolving. I would recommend the feedback from the kundalini survey as it highlights how many others are experiencing Kundalini.