I’m in a dark night of the soul. I’ve felt it for maybe the last six months or so and recently it has really hit me hard. Now, and on a few occasions over the last month or so, i find myself sensing an immense emptiness inside, a nothingness, loss of meaning, purpose, and motivation to do anything. What i once found interesting is no more. I literally sit and peer into my self and i am a shell of what i thought i was. What is the point of anything anymore? What does the kundalini actually mean to me? This is my second dark night in ten years since its inception and much more painful than the first. Is this all just a realization of the deep meaninglessness of the physical world and that the darkness i find myself shackled inside of, suffering from, is exactly what i need to to through in order to find some semblance of peace or love or purpose or whatever? I find myself crying alone these days and im not even sure why. Just out of the blue. Im angry. i feel dispossessed of everything and no real path to move forward on. I feel unsupported and uncared for In my life. I feel alone. I got a promotion at work, somehow, yet i dont even care. I hate chasing money. I hate what i do. i hate being stuck in this place im in right now. Its too much.