Hello everyone, new to the group. Had an awakening 47 years ago, fortunately I was young (29 and confident). had been exploring inner life for some time. It was the most ecstatic thing I can imagine. For two months I was in a state of bliss, couldn't do anything, would've been happy in rags on a street corner holding a sign that said.... You Are Loved! It's still there, like an almost imperceptible hum. For myself, it was all about Love. Take care~
Clarence
I had my KA 10 years ago. There's always been a lot of purging/crying, but for the last few years I've been more able to function and do 'normal' things. Now though, I seem to be in a new phase which feels to me like a breakdown. I am crying a lot of the day, all day, and unlike before, I don't always have a sense of what's being released. It is really difficult.
It's coinciding with health problems too that are also difficult to face and deal with.
My hope is that the kundalini is ramping up to break through deeper blocks and that I may have some peace once this is over. But at other times it feels hopeless, like it will never be over. Has anyone experienced something similar?
While recoviing from PTSD (Surgically induced) and the first part of Covid, I spent many months, actually years grieving, mostly my whole life. I think this ran on almost 4 years. Take it one day at a time
Hi all, I am wondering if anyone has experience with taking psychedelics or plant medicines after KA? I am looking to understand if they can trigger another KA wave or whether those with KA become hypersensitive to the doses of the medicines. Thanks!
I made this picture for you to explain the situation: on first curve, you see positive spirituality levels under drug. On second picture, you got slow paced enlightenment and same factors. Drug use is especially strong and convincing into "something exists", and many drugs can help to open gateways: I was young I made different drugs, but I did not want to get addicted. Now in last 10-15 years, and I am 43: I smoke some weed which is for example normal in Spain, but with actual psychedelic drugs and other strong mental materials, I just naturally have done less and less: last 5 years, I would guess, no drugs. I can say without drugs it's not so intense, colorful and clear, but it's a slowly building stable character, clear vision and other kinds of clarity and it's definitely my enlightenment. Drugs, in normal "medical" use: you must be clear about different drugs, their use cases, specific problems they create or resolve, and whether you can fit all this long process into your life. This is possible that while you might have intense experiences from drugs, which help to understand things: the final, stable and balanced lifestyle cannot be directly induced by drugs, but it's a very strong take for your spirit.
My son believes some kind of kundalini has been spontaneously activated in him. He was suffering from chroinc DPDR at the time. He had done some breathwork and meditation but not excessively. About two years ago he had a strange experience (perhaps when it was "activated" and since they he periodically has felt waves of energy move around and outside of him - and he became terrified of anything supernatural which made his symptoms worse. He says sometimes he feels as if he's being "ripped up" from the inside. For the last year he has experienced strong waves of energy outside of himself which at times can get quite "violent". He believes this is his soul or part of him because the bigger it gets the more disassociated he feels from reality. He finds life "impossible" at the moment. His only way to deal with it is to "accept" but…
Hi Clarence,
Lovely to read about your experience. What a gift! Good to have you with us. 😃🙏