Your Awakening Story

Hello. At present I fear the resistance and control more than I fear the symptoms, and due to this fear, the control occurs and had conquered every second of my life since I went into a process of controlling the control''. A certain pattern of energy movement plus it's specific resistance is triggered by fear or by the power of the context - if it happens when I make a tea, it'll happen again at seeing the tea pot, or it's enough to think of it if I fear it, and it occurs. The more I try to release control, the more it sticks to me. The mind struggles to surrender, but under the pretext of calming the body, it supresses the energy. My natural impulse has always been to channel the energy, when I create something I can feel how good is to let the energy flow, but the…

My awakening story (sorry it's so long!)

A long time ago, When I was 17 my first boyfriend died in an accident. I witnessed his death and it was very traumatic. I had felt very connected to him. It felt at times he was able to understand me almost telepathically. Which was helpful as I was shy, introverted and high masked autistic although I didn’t know that at the time. His death caused a huge amount of pain and a kind of existential crisis in me. In the days before his death I had become very worried he was going to die in an accident. I had spoken to him about being worried and tried to get him to be careful. I felt guilt for not being able to prevent his death and confused about if it was possible for me to have really known something in advance of it…

I am a psychologist and yoga teacher who has been going through an awakening for over 14 years. 14 years ago I walked away from a hugely successful career as I felt a strong sense I was not living my life purpose and everyone around me thought I was mad. I didn't and it felt right so I could see my kids grow up.

I have had plenty of chaos over the 14 years and the past year has been really intense where I have faced my shadow self and I can no longer hide from who I am and what I have done in the past. I am actually okay about this as it all leads to this path which is right for me and I am truly beginning to see good and bad as the same thing. In my experience, this has been particularly good for dealing wi…