Has anyone suffered from chronic depersonalisation/derealisation at the time of experiening a spontaneous kundalini awakening ? My son fears if he relaxes/accepts the process he will fall into the "void"/nothingness, as his sense of identity is so fragile anyway (because of the DPD). He has so far not found anyone who has DPD at the time of... (ie rather than "as part of ") the experience of Kundalini and is desperate to find out the best way of working through the process - and any dangers he feels are associated with it. Thanks
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Having had a complete kundalini awakening in 1976, and then following a sufi path of inner transformation, I will offer my perspective on your question. For me, the kundalini awakening resulted in the formation of a cosmic level of consciousness, while still retaining the potential of ego awareness or self consciousness. As Sufi master Pir Vilayat Inayat Khan has expressed: in the future, consciousness will be "stereoscopic"; we will navigate our perspective from different vantage points. I do not consider depersonalization/derealization to be inherently a disorder. From the cosmic perspective, one is viewing one's ego sense of identity as a creation, thus giving the impression that our human life is like a dream, and not the ultimate reality. However, as Pir Vilayat has said, after awakening beyond life, we must awaken within life. This is the challenge one has following a complete spontaneous kundalini awakening. Recognizing, and adapting to, the dual nature of humanity, that we are both the creator and creation, is the beginning of the process to awakening in life. Of course, western psychology would disagree with my perspective. They will most likely view all instances of depersonalization/derealisation as a disorder, whereas I believe it to be a disorder only if one is unable to integrate these two levels of consciousness. Your son would benefit from sessions with a therapist who has an appreciation and knowledge of kundalini. My thoughts here serve only to provide an understanding of the challenges he is currently struggling with.
I would focus on being grounded and having anchors iin thiis reality.