I'm a 55 year-old male with a history of yoga practice stretching back about 15 years.
In late 2024 awareness came online about parts of the body that hadn't been a part of my existence until then, beginning like small fireworks going off in the pelvic floor region and progressing to what at the time felt like full-body orgasms. At first, these experiences were days, or weeks apart, until, about three months later automatic kryas, or yoga postures came on, after which all manner of energetic phenomena occurred.
Since that time, as part of the unfolding, automatic typing takes place, most days, after meditation. Some friends recently encouraged this to be shared with a wider audience, so I started a Substack as a way of publishing what comes. The decision to publish wasn't straightforward and involved all kinds of ego checks that are still ongoing. So far, other people have been in touch to say they find the posts helpful and this gives some encouragement to continue.
In the main, the posts are raw and uncensored. The intention is to be as open about what happens as possible, in the hope that this may help others to see aspects of themselves in reflection. The Substack takes the form of a blog, and it is published retrospectively, to give suitable buffer between the experience and the sharing of it in wider circles. I've copied and pasted the opening entry below, and there's a link to the Substack site for more info if anyone gets the urge to read further. The first entry sets things up - it has a gearing towards people who know nothing about kundalini, so skim over the bits that are like granny teaching mother to suck eggs.
I do come along to the end of month online sessions when I can and am really happy to be in touch with others if there's a call for this. Often the end of month sessions coincide with yoga sessions, so I'm not always able to make them. I'm grateful for the community here and appreciate it very much. It can be a lonely world out there. From witnessing the end of month sessions, there's awareness around how hard the kundalini awakening can be for some people. Here, perhaps because of yoga, it's relatively kind and forgiving. There's a lot of curiosity and wonder and trust and surrendering to things as they come. I hope what follows is helpful to someone. Matt x
"A while ago, after yoga practice, a transformative event happened in the body, prompting a profound shift in awareness, calling into question everything Matthew West thought he was. It was totally unexpected, and, a bit like parenting, nothing could prepare for what was to come. At least, that’s the story.
The awakening of Kundalini is multi-faceted, involving a range of experiences, or phenomena, that can beggar belief. This Substack isn’t about convincing anyone of anything. Rather, it’s an invitation to openness, in the hope that what comes from it may be of some use, some service, to others along the way.
Much of the sharing will be from old journal entries and many of these will take the form of a method of transmission that’s best conceived as automatic writing or psychography. Consider it a form of claircognizance if you like.
The experience is of placing hands on the keyboard and letting the typing come of its own accord. In general, there’s no direct thought process involved. The mind is blank and the fingers touch-type, and words appear on the screen. Sometimes a word enters the mind before it’s typed, and other times this isn’t the case. Two consecutive words are not held in mind at the same time. There’s no sentence formation prior to what is written.
At first, the transmissions took hand-written form and the script was unfamiliar, with letters taking shape from bottom to top, rather than the top-down style used in a more conventional method of letter printing. Words would come that don’t appear in dictionaries, sometimes with explanation, and other times without. Some entries were gibberish. Others had a more lucid flavour.
Names are changed as necessary. Other judicious editing will be by omission rather than addition, and for the sake of clarity rather than to direct the reader in a more contrived way. Context will be given as and where appropriate.
Matthew West is the editor and lays no claim to authorship of the transmissions, although these are coloured through the lens of his personality and experience, making use of a vocabulary that is familiar to him, unless stated otherwise. Sometimes he asks questions while the transmissions take place, resulting in a form of a dialogue. If the text isn’t a transmission, that should be clear enough. If he remembers, Matthew will confirm his contributions by using italics.
What follows is the first typed transmission from June 202X to give an idea of what’s to come. The year is obscured for a degree of separation. An awareness of Kundalini is newly present in the system and the body and mind are taking their own sweet time to catch up.
For context, it should also be said that as part of a kundalini awakening, the physical body can undergo a purification process. More on that in due course. In this case, the purification process is like an embodied intelligence coming online with a comprehensive knowledge of physiology. This intelligence goes about working through physical, psychological, and emotional blockages. It can be an unsettling time.
There is a dumb old surviving undercurrent of the days when the dark was the quick day and the night was the quick night. Now there is a different type of understanding. The way of the world is not the same as it was before. There is a new way of the sand in the Santa and the new way is the only way to be.
What must I do? You must stop eating the wrong types of food.
What are the wrong types of food? They are the types of food that won’t let you be your best self.
How do I know what is right or wrong? There is only the right way of doing things. Listen and you will find out for yourself.
How do I pay attention when the senses are overwhelmed, like yesterday, moving into a new and crowded space? There is the pigeon and there is the crow. The crow is the canny one. The crow will not go to the park and wait for food to come. The Crow will go to the right food first. Eat well so you don’t need to eat later. Make sure the right food is around you at all times. You are nearly there.
There is more to this than the food. There is the behaviour behind the food. There is food for grounding, and this is one type of food. There is food for comfort eating and this is another type of food and there is food as energy for the body’s systems to help it function as well as it can. Today, the mango is to get the metabolism moving again. It has sugar in it and it kick-starts the system. When the system is activated it can process the food. It can’t do this so well when you are asleep.
There is the food you will find in the wrong places. Grow up! Understand what the body needs and give it that - not what the behaviour automatically grabs for. It’s a matter of attention. Of giving more attention to what goes in and how it goes in. You know to steer clear of bread. To steer clear of peanuts. To steer clear of processed foods. None of these will help. Steer clear of deep-fried foods. Steer clear of food with low nutrition. Be wise with your food choices. I can help.
Open to the way and the way will find you. There is a mind of the undercurrent and there is a mind of the young ones. Use the mind of the old and wise ones. They know what needs to be done.
It is good to listen to them. Don’t be afraid. Close the old self down and relax into the new way of being in the world. It’s OK. Nothing will hurt you here. Nothing will happen that isn’t for the best. The old way of eating is a hangover of the old self. The new self understands things differently. You don’t need to save this document. It’s just a way of being able to talk directly to the part of you that’s still catching up.
All is as it should be. Relax in the knowledge of this. All is coming in its own good time. Keep letting go of old ideas. Stay open as the new comes in.
Why do you need to get online? What’s not already inside you that you need to know? What’s not here?
Face each day as it comes. Face each moment as it arises. There’s nothing else to do. It’s just easier to communicate when the letters are already formed and the paper doesn’t run out. Put the kettle on. Make a cup of tea. See what comes next.
[new entry]
There is an understanding of the inner world. Through this understanding you will learn to go to the place where the old ones are. The old ones are the frontier of the forest and there is a fullness of the wonderful green and blue of the world. There is a fresh place in the forest where the people will not be able to die.
Those of you who are on the wavelength will not have to suffer. You will be ok. Those of you who are not on the wavelength will suffer and will perish. These are the conditions you will face. Forget the ways that have led you here. They will not help you. There is a place in the forest where the sages are waiting. You are on the right path.
Please don’t forget to answer the insights with right action. This is your calling. Those of you who are on the right path will know what to do next. There is no need to apologise for yourself. There is no one to answer to. Offer up your heart and follow where it leads.
The resources you need will find you. The people you need will follow you. Those who would derail your purpose will fall away. They have fallen away.
How will I know when to go? You will know when the time is right. It will be an undeniable pull. It isn’t now. It isn’t yet. In the meantime, wait and learn. There is much to learn and there is much to do. The sickness is the old ones slowing you down, letting you absorb what you need before moving forward. It’s OK. Nothing to worry about.
There will be no other reason for the order to keep you on the margins. There will be no other time for this than when it happens. Relax into it. It will be ok.
Don’t worry about reading this back. That’s not important. What’s important is to be with what’s happening now. To see how it works and to follow as it leads you.
The process will take its own sweet time. There’s nothing you can do to hurry it. One day you’ll find yourself no longer in the same places where you once spent much of your time.
The ego is the servant of an offered up mind. Keep letting go of whatever rises. Keep letting go of the past. Keep letting go of anything that seems precious to you. Yes. Give the watch to J. It’s unimportant in the scheme of things.
Keep listening for instruction around food. It’s easy enough to do. To hand over the authority for that. You’ve seen how it is when life takes control and how you can sabotage yourself. Don’t get hung up on it. Most of the time you get it right but now and then you get it wrong. That’s how it is. Nothing to worry about.
There is a person who will make themselves known to you in the next few days. Someone who will help you further on the way. Stay open to suggestions. There is no need to go where the humans are in their youngest ways.
Until the understanding is with you there will be more times like these. Times when you have to stop and rest up and make room for the new to come in. Until then, listen. Listen and respond. Do as you are doing. You’re on the right path.
Don’t worry about work. It will take care of itself. It is taking care of itself and it will take care of you as well. Use your wisdom to become the person who is the best of yourself. Be patient. He will open the doors in his own time."
If you'd like to read further, I'm publishing these a couple of times a week. Here's a link to the next post: https://matthewniverse.substack.com/p/make-the-most-of-the-food-on-your?r=2n9wcv
