Hi all, I just joined this forum because the past week I have been feeling really overwhelmed
I was working with my chakras and doing breathwork for the past 6 months after an event triggered intense ptsd, raising the energy through my spine feeling love and gratitude daily. The anxiety and fear symptoms were subsiding but this past week something I have never felt started to happen, I am now feeling constant tremors and trembling in my spine from my root chakra up to the heart, sometimes it reaches the head and I feel intense pressure and vibrations.. if I try to relax into it it doesn’t subside, it’s not severe but I constantly feel it .. at first I was feeling panic and an increase in fear in meditation because of it, had nightmares where my entire spine was trembling and shaking and I would wake up terrified
I am trying to calm down and I am not sure if I should continue raising the energy of each chakra to help the energy move or if I should stop and let it settle somehow ? And if acupuncture could help clear the blockages or should be avoided ?
Any help would be much appreciated 🙏
I don't know the solution to your problem, but I must say - for me, there are many ups and downs in my way to enlightenment, also sometimes I feel I fit some profiles of some higher stages, whereas other times I see I lack qualities, which should come on the lower stages. My personal struggles are more about how to survive material world and the troubles and pains in my soul, which definitely purify me. I don't have physical trouble - only I'm right now so empty physically, than I'm weaker and get tired more easily than before, also I'm 40 so maybe I used to be younger; also maybe I don't eat properly. But this is my physical trouble to overcome.
What I wanted to say, to hear words like "Kundalini symptoms", "Kundalini syndrome", etc. - this just fears me. It makes me feel that people go crazy about enlightenment and finally it's simply illegal. I want to say that we should take care that we manage the problems of the way of enlightenment where some words strangely look like finally, we have the problems of enlightenment, people are simply cured, because it somehow happened; people seeking help to get rid of this dangerous and unknown thing. I want to say I do not understand, how this happens, and it's very strange - it looks like that in East, the enlightenment itself is not so much seen as trouble, and the stories tend to get somewhere; reading all this, it's scarely close to the situation, where enlightenment is a scary demon, which catches innocent people.
I can understand if there is trouble, there is trouble, but I want to ask this deeper question - how it can be that about awakening, people talk with such scary voices and dark faces? I can see that I've almost destroyed all my life on my journey to enlightenment, but this all makes perfectly sense to me - I could not live that society any more, so I'm desperately searching my place. Also I don't care so much to have the material pleasure in every stage of my life. But I have never been thinking about so much symptoms, symptoms, symptoms - if we cannot handle them, finally there will be something like Drug Laws preventing the unexpected enlightenment, and people are put to jail for teaching enlightenment strategies. I think that has been happened in history. How can be that in Buddhist countries, you can read many stories, but they have somehow different attitude, somehow people handle everything on their way?
I don't want to say that you don't need to heal and recover, or that people should not help each others with such things - if there is a problem, there needs to be a solution. But I want to say that such situation looks plain awkward ..how can enlightenment happen to people, who are not ready? I has always been like an expected event in your life story, people are very happy - but, now, it's like a fast train, which takes you into the middle of nowhere and then, simply goes away and leaves you there? Are we missing something fundamental in our culture, which usually makes all those things much less dangerous?
And, for me, every step of my enlightenment is a result of hard work and inner call, and all the side-effects are somehow things I prepared for; I understand that I went through all the philosophy lessons, exercises and changes in philosophy of life, and then, in result of that I made a little progress every time; and when things accumulate, all those little steps - sometimes, something big happens and the energy suddenly goes up and changes me completely. But it always happens in direction, where I was moving with a hard work. Now, this is very strange that enlightenment is catching innocent people, and throwing them into stages they did not want to reach. Does this happen if the energy is awakening collectively, not personally? That the collective being is enlightening, and the pieces simply do not understand, what is going on?
Well I don't want to disturb your self-help, when you have questions and problems, you have the right for answers and solutions - but there is a general question for everybody, and this is about our culture and what we lack here to make us so vulnerable by enlightenment, that the terms "diagnosis", "symptoms" or "syndromes" come into play instead of nice-sounding words from the East? Is this a specific way, how the Western Training would approach to anything? Or are the doctors working so much on other tracks, providing people all kinds of help against spirituality itself, that suddenly we have not learnt the philosophy, which would guide you through? Is there something wrong about our bodies - are the Eastern people somehow trained and raised to the bodies, which do not have so much problems with energies? Sure, I cannot say that in East, you do not have energy blocks or such stuff - simply, from the books I've read it seems such particular problems are not very common, because they would at least mention something so serious and typical.