Hi all,
I was on a ZOOM call several Friday evenings past, and the topic of tools to help cope with a kundalini awakening came up. I wanted to share some insights and understandings that have just come through to me in the past year, and particularly the past weeks
I realize I have been trying to navigate my journey from the perspective of those who are seeking healing, but are not going through a kundalini awakening, and I’ve realized how unique (and heartbreakingly hard, OK that part I realized some time ago) this process is, and that in hindsight, with kundalini flowing, if it’s been a rude and spontaneous awakening, things work a little differently for us.
Forgive me if I repeat anything you are already aware of, but wanted to give a full picture. As always, I speak only from my experience and what works/doesn’t work for me, we all have unique experiences, I hope you find my insights useful.
Just to give some context, my awakening began beginning 2017 and I’m probably the most grounded and energised now that I’ve been in the past 7 years, still struggling a bit with aligning the physical and the spiritual, in terms of making money, but it will come.
LESSONS LEARNED
CREATE SAFE AND GROUNDED ENVIRONMENTS
The importance of having a safe, calm home environment, where you can cocoon yourself is of utmost importance. In my earlier phases I was living on the 24th floor of a high-rise, downtown in Shanghai. Luckily, that apartment was very quiet, with good energy and it being China I had the luxury of being able to order most things I needed on my phone and having them delivered to my front door. I only ventured out for work or when it was absolutely necessary. I have no idea how I managed to pay my bills those first few years. Luckily my work assignments tended to be short term, so I could manage to keep up a facade in short bursts.
MOVE, RELEASE, TRANSFORM ENERGY, DON’T ADD TO THE ENERGETIC LOAD
I felt a certain amount of grief the other day, I feel like I’ve added to my process through trying to fix things, not understanding that kundalini will do what it needs to, in it’s own time. I wonder if I’ve added time to this experience which made me feel angry, I don’t now believe in always thinking of the ‘positives’. I understand the gifts, and a state of peace and acceptance will return, but for now I beg your indulgence of my state of anger and loss.
You want to move and release the energy, but not bring in additional processes of healing (intense breathwork, psychedelics and energy medicine like reiki) as inn hindsight this can just overwhelm the ‘bodies’. Less is more, let the body do what it needs to, and provide a supportive, safe and grounded environment for it to do so.
I’d be interested to hear more thoughts from others around this, I feel certainly my soul path was to study some of these modalities but particularly reiki 2, my life got tossed into complete chaos, and I constantly seemed to be picking up negative entities.
I studied reiki around one year into my awakening, my healer thought it would be useful for me to learn how to balance my chakras and clean my aura as I keep attracting lower vibration energetic forms and entities. In hindsight, not sure it was really what I needed as often I would just pick up things off other people, it would happen regardless of whether I was doing reiki or not. A healer did a scan on me a year and a half ago and said I had picked up a lot of emotional debris from others, probably through reiki, so I took a long break and have to say I felt significantly better with limited offerings of reiki and mostly focusing on my other modalities.
I would say most healers don’t understand the kundalini process and how it affects the energy body. Your channels are so open, painful sensitivity. My QHHT teacher and I dialogued a bit about this (she went through a KA herself) and she said that it really opens your aura, and you can have tears, so really you want to protect and ground yourself. I was very isolated the first few years anyway, it was just too intense being around people and in certain spaces, I’m sure you can all relate.
I found shamanic dancing and journeying really helpful, moving and releasing energy and emotions through sound, voice, dancing in sometimes bizarre ways to express and release.
TOOLS
PROTECTION
Energetic protection of your aura and space
Cleaning your aura and space (sage, palo Santo, small bowls of salt in corners of the room, salt baths, showers and visualizing any heavy energies leaving your body)
Boundaries (this was a hard one) and I feel I’m only starting to see clearly on this one now. I had walls before which all got demolished as my heart got cracked open and am now focused on building healthy boundaries. As you realize we are all one and have experienced LOVE and connection to Source, you want to love and accept everyone as they are. Sadly though, not everyone has this understanding and still operates from old paradigms. I had some horrific experiences with people treating me very badly, taking advantage. Me knowing on some level that I should not be around this person, but not having the energy, resolve to walk away sooner and tolerating just awful behavior. We can accept, but don’t have to tolerate. Do the best you can on this one and isolate yourself from these people.
Shamanic journeying as a tool-I studied this with the late Hank Wesselman in 2020 and this helped me to start to fortify my boundaries, call in allies and cultivate my sacred garden, my subconscious.
GROUNDING
I had so much energy in my head and crown, my head was constantly vibrating for years on end, actually it started up again last year. It’s important to try and ground and connect to the earth energy, as with the KA process you can easily float around in the 5D.
Some examples of grounding I practice
-During meditations, this mantra came to me specifically connecting me with Mother Earth energy
I would visualise a connection the center of the earth, with golden light connecting me at my root chakra and I would repeat over and over, “I am safe, I am held, I am protected” until I felt it.
-Walking barefoot on grass
-Playing with pets
-Hanging around with good muggle or grounded spiritual friends who have their feet on the ground and can support you, even if they don’t understand what is going on( in my first couple years I isolated myself from people as much as possible, as I felt their energy too acutely, so trust whatever you need. Also, when it comes time for you to emerge from your shell, support will come to you)
-Laugh, this may be hard at times, but try even if it’s laughing from a place of despair
-Sing, the vibrations help to sooth my heart chakra
-Visualisation of a golden root growing from your root chakra into the earth and connecting with earth energy as much as possible.
-Raw nature if you can, else a park will also do. I had a lot of plants in my apartment which was on the 24th floor, I found this helped enormously and could also feel their energy.
-Sunshine
-Swimming in fresh lakes and sea, baths with salt
-Safe, calm home space that you can hide in and recharge
-Release this mindset of only looking at traditional methods to ground.
Recently, I’ve started playing regular sports again, beach volleyball, tennis the year before last and playing team sports again have been brilliant for me. I was always very active prior to my KA, and I find delving back into competitive sports, even if just recreational have been enormously helpful. Additionally, a lot of people who I play with live very normal lives and are grounded, this is great energy to be around. Playing sport has also helped fire up the solar plexus again.
MEDITATION
MUSIC
I would often lie on my sofa for HOURS with headphones on and listen to binaural music. Hugely hugely, hugely helpful. Brought me peace and the frequencies will help you balance and regulate your nervous system.
Sound bowls (I’d say OK as a personal practice, but I personally wouldn’t recommend it in groups until you’re more grounded and your biofield is more robust, else you are going to attract other people’s ‘stuff’)
Medicina music
More recently, I’ve been delving into contemporary music, some ‘up’ electronic music but also just tunes that feel good
MOVEMENT
I suffered from extreme fatigue for many years, dragging myself about feeling like I was wading through mud. Some days I felt like I would never be able to sprint again, just walking was exhausting for me, my legs feeling weak and heavy, no fire in my solar plexus.
I was too exhausted in the beginning to do much conscious movement, bearing in mind before it I used to have very high energy levels and played competitive sport.
At one stage though, I started doing yoga, I don’t love yoga but it served it’s purpose helping me to move, stretch, breath. At later stages, walking dogs and then pushing myself to do jumprope, which was so hard initially, out of breath within in seconds.
As I mentioned above, shamanic dancing really helped enormously. Do what you can.
REST
When you need to rest, rest. Sometimes there is no choice regarding rest, it would just come over me suddenly and I would pass out for hours.
DIET
This is personal for everyone, tune in, and don’t just stick to something because of societal narratives. Give your body what it is asking for.
-For the first few years of my KA I was a strict vegetarian, actually went through a major detox and completely cut out sugar, alcohol (still maintain that) and meat out of my diet. Following a process in 2020 I received a clear message, eat meat. I had lost around 7kgs and had people asking me if I was ill, subsequent to eating meat again (grassfed/organic) I started regaining strength, but it’s taken years to recover, still ongoing.
-I often find chocolate cake and coffee to be incredibly grounding, also a burger and French Fries. I don’t judge myself, I just go with it.
-Quality water
BREATHWORK
I’m referring to functional breathwork (The Oxygen Advantage) or a pranayama practice.
I tried Wim Hof and after three months I stopped doing it, kept the cold water process for a year though. Wim Hof is a stressor and while experiencing a KA your nervous system is in overdrive.
I found pranayama and functional practices like The Oxygen Advantage (I studied both) to be life changing, as you are working with bringing yourself into a parasympathetic state.
Walking and nasal breathing literally saved me when nothing else could calm my nervous system.
SUPPLEMENTS
Your bodies, energetic, physical and nervous system are going through enormous recalibrations and purging.
Take some supplements to support yourself especially B12, Magnesium in my opinion and something like Ashwaghanda (although check into that as it it not suitable for everyone)
MINDSET (MY REALISATIONS)
-Surrender. Things will fall apart, allow yourself to be destroyed and to die and to be born again only to die and be born again and agin and again, the more you resist the harder it is.
-You will stare in the mirror at times, and think-who the fck is that looking at me?
-Acknowledge how incredibly, heartbreakingly HARD this process is ( we don’t always need to find the silver lining, the grief and suffering were overwhelming for me at times, relentless over years. Wave after wave after wave of trauma coming up. It is hardcore, and no one can tell me different) some days I really feel incredibly resentful towards this process and sorry for myself, but I try not to sit there too long. I don’t ignore it either though.
-Appreciate the latent gifts that start to emerge for you (for me, the levels of universal understanding, psychic abilities emerging, connection to source and receiving downloads), enjoy the periods of bliss and connectedness.
-Avoid anyone who says they can heal you, at best they can provide some guidance, support or a tool. KA gives you a level of understanding, even tho you are navigating chaos, that not many can comprehend or appreciate.
-If it feels bad, try avoid it (you’re already feeling terrible, why add to the suffering) to qualify, I mean anything external or additional to what the KA process brings up for you.
-Whether you currently feel like it or not, anyone who goes through this process is a WARRIOR in my opinion. At times I’ve called out saying, universe, I can’t do this, I’m ready to check out, but somehow you find the resolve to keep going or help comes in for you.
-You don’t need to understand everything that comes up and where it comes from, it’s a rabbit hole that can very deep. I found it necessary to go down the emotional rabbit hole initially, but I’m at a phase now where I don’t need/or want to. I feel once the heavy stuff has left, you can heal through joy, laughter and fun…still working on that but it’s coming.
-Trust yourself and the universe. We are being guided towards higher, ultimately, but the lessons can be heartbreaking at first. Love is not just fluffy, love can be tough, this process is from love, but it is hard.
-Very few people can understand the KA process, I just realized recently not even very conscious or ‘spiritual’ people can fully comprehend it. And that helped me come to peace with a few things.
-Be kind and oh so gentle with yourself.
SUPPORT
I was very isolated the first couple years, not understanding what was happening to me and as mentioned, feeling everything to the extreme. However, it is still necessary to have some gentle human support if you can. The details of the first couple years are not clear, but I do know I withdrew. I worked when I had to and withdrew from social circles.
However, support will come through inn unexpected ways.
A friend came into my life who was also going through an awakening of sorts and we would sit slumped in a coffee shop, just staring into the distance, occasionally breaking out into hysterical fits of laughter when we would look at each other and see how miserable we were.
My housekeeper in Shanghai(an angel in disguise), saw how much I was struggling with life and took me on a ride on her scooter and took me to the botanical gardens and sat with me for a few hours. I will never forget this kindness. I sometimes feel like she was a fairy godmother, sent to watch over me.
I hope this is useful to people, I tried to make it coherent with some kind of structure. Actually just writing it out has been therapeutic for me today, had many emotions(anger and grief) bubbling up inside of me and I had to get it out.
Feel free to share in the comments below tools and insights that have helped you. Again, this is written from my perspective and experiences. We are all here to bring our own unique vibration to the planet, so your insights may be different from mine.
In summary I want to say, the KA took me to the 5D, and while I love it there, it makes it very hard to function on the material plane.
Ground, protect and look after yourself.
I hope these insights are useful, please share any tools that have helped you in the comments below.
Peace and blessings to you.
Natali-The Flow Projects
Thank you sooo much for sharing this Natali 🩵 going through it today and feeling quite alone so hearing someone have such a similar experience, just makes me feel like I'm not going crazy 🤣 some really useful tips, can't thank you enough for taking the time to share ✨
Yes, thank you so much Natali for sharing. It is so useful to hear your journerey. As Joe says each of our journeys are unique..but there are threads in common.....we can learn off each other.......and I think hearing each other's experience can also be very supportive in the sense we can see we are not alone being in this challenging but ultimately positive process. Thank you again. x
Thank you for sharing this I found it enormously helpful ❤️🙏🏻
Thanks for sharing your insights. Everyone's journey is unique, but we can all learn something from each other.