Integration

Yes my latest integration is existence and non-existence of God. Initially I did not care, then I was an atheist (still believing that I have special connection with God), then I believed God, but now I see that the nature of reality is bigger and quantum realities, paradigms or models, which do involve believing in God or do not, can both be validated on scientific or mystical basis. The ethical reasons for believing or not believing in God are complex, and so are the logical reasons, and the entity, which exists or does not exist, can also differ for different people. The shifts of reality can be complete and in some realities you cannot say that God exists; also there are complex reasons, why God might want to completely hide from some people or show himself to others. Also, when we live, keeping something higher in mind - when many people and natural events follow the idea of God, then without the existence of God, it would still be implied - when we live in synchronous ways ourselves, the synchronicity exists, and if it's merely an ethical reason, it would still be something to benefit from.

One person told that he did not know before, but then he reached the stage of oneness and saw it's true. I told him that another person might not reach the stage of oneness, and then, the lack of oneness is true as well.

In Buddhist teachings the reality is very much what we create, and thus, the notion of God is not something to start from - but if you create a karmic connection with good and all-encompassing energy, you would resonate a great good karma with others, who do so; and you can find out that such resonance is beneficial and ethical, it's a better thing to have. So if God is a better thing to have, then existence of many people, who intelligently help others, would create a general background of miracles happening in life, such as somebody helping you in hard moment. Such synchronicity, you can only call it God. It remains philosophical and mystical, what is God before you bring it to your life - indeed, God ceases to exist for you, if you don't create good karma with such an entity.

Internally, I believe God very much in all it's forms and definitions, and I also believe that atheists are living in a world without God. Anyway, with philosophical scrutiny, I do exercise doubt in everything I sense, both empirical and intuitive senses, and I do not deny that my style of life might simply create good patterns, which resemble God, or that my understanding of God might be so limited that I suddenly talk some nonsense about god-inclined material events, to some person, who might have different, higher or lower patterns of karma. Thus, the entity I imagine might not completely exist. But I can still build valid models of the world, which do not include any specific notion of God, and still provide me with valid ethical and logical considerations, which would not insult any God to the point of anger. I also believe that if a scientific person is able to disprove my material and ethical considerations, with the science on the level of mine or similar, they would indeed prove me that God does not really want this. Despite this warning, I am very interested in people, who give me facts and numbers based only on intuition - I do not completely trust the material consideration of them, but I see this as some kind of bravery and intelligence and I think the world would lack something without having some percent of people, who bravery express their intuitions. I personally fear to do that - when I have strong intuitive knowledge that someone is a betrayer, I would have a long material story, which does not turn to self-fulfilling prophecy, to give people some material evidence for doubts in this person. I also had a feeling that there are some starships near Earth, when people were talking about this, but I do not want to speculate about the physical nature of such things or the evidences we would get - but I believe strongly that another race not from Earth was having a material, telepathic or intellectual connection with humans, and that this race must be existing either in past, present, future or on the potential field, or that such event must signify important events in the potential interaction humans would have with another race, in a way that this is relevant. Dreams don't always come true, but they tend to give important insights about things, which are relevant, and event the failures and successes of humans with non-existing, but realistic aliens would be an important thing to consider. The girls (mostly), who talk about this as if they have a physical evidence, giving many physical details and believing some stories of those, are still an interesting an equal partner for me even if they do not have such philosophic scrutiny - as long as they do not mess with lives of people giving them material promises about things, which make them fail in their lives, or as long as they sound a little bit off-worldly so that people do not want to make such assumptions, such people are still an example of great senses of something and the amount of details they give is inspiring. Lastly, even if aliens do not exist, the realistic stories of civilizations, which might exist if reality is having some given properties, are really a great achievement providing insights about where the humankind could evolve. I think their intuitions about the reliability of their sources is more or less fair, and the tone of voice does not show that they have passed such philosophical scrutiny, thus they are not lying. But I have some fears about their success in society, and thus I would like if they work more to be philosophically deep and still expressive about the details - I do not easily believe anything, but everything gives me the inspirational thought, and this is important that people with visions of God or alien races have given me some social archetypes. Life, in the end, is a dream, and it might not want to so necessarily decide, whether aliens exist to everybody.