The Weavers

While what you said about vulnerabilities can be a philosophical truth, reflection one needs to take care of their own basis, I think in truth we are not so vulnerable.

You can always find people, who have lost some meaning of life, while their positive deeds for the world have been seen as meaningless. Feelings of meaninglessness, low self-worth, can make people feel like they want to die. It's hard to find people, who want to die, because they broke their car. Feelings of being worthy, the ones of meaningfulness, make us very strongly want to live - when you fear death, you probably fear that what you do for the world and people around you would be undone. You don't feel so urgently that you lose your car. When we think that our work is done and we leave to Nirvana, we feel bless and joy, even if this would be a complete stop with our karmic mission vibrating in the world. Or, when you feel you would completely lose your meaning, have nothing to do for the world, and then you just become non-existent - when you don't feel your deep feeling, even this kind of "Nirvana" can be seen as a satisfaction. So, people urgently fight for their meaning, and even to have a psychology to do some ruthless business, you must stand at the mirror and repeat that you have meaning, by some popular books of business mentality.

But your meaning, how can God or other people destroy this? When you are being defeated and dismissed, the experience grows and you learn even deeper meaning, which you will feel towards those, who can carry it out; and deeper work you can do for those who "don't know they are doing" as Christ apologized them ("Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing."). We know that unlike Buddha or others, who had time to write, Christ did not leave comprehensive books behind, written with his own hand - far before most people start to do a brilliant work, he was dead. But he was not destroyed - if his mission was also larger, about the world and the Universe, not his own little car floating on the straight roads, we can see he weaved all his webs, which were all tortured and killed, but only shortly could these people enjoy their ignorance and inability to see - soon, they were treated in a way, which makes us sad about the history, and the crime of the Christ was commited by Church. We cannot say it's a good crime, but we also cannot say that they would have enjoyed their victory long enough. I would be really sad if I kill another family and then, my family would be killed with kind of mad and unfair reasoning, which simply sounds like they don't care about us. I don't very much believe in the people, who carry out the bad karma - karma of the winner is not to go and win their own war, but utter nonsense is often left where God fights, not the lawful arguments Pontius Pilatus would like to hear to be sane and worthful. Christ, on the other side, was surely a rebel and compared to the God, who simply comes and brings money and bless - the very same Pontius Pilatus would have been a very best friend of him. We would still defend people, who would have gone and killed the God, in case he was poor. We cannot account for existence of Christ as a God, it's not really an interesting topic for a Buddhist - rather, God appearing would have had the same characteristics, and he would have been killed as well. I don't know, why one man in Bible calls himself a God, but the other man says he is a Son of God, a title attributed to Julius Caesar as well - in my mind, perhaps they were even the same person, in a way.

Humans are part of the bigger truth, being, for God, little dots with absolute truth value. For God, the karmic laws hold as he is not against the laws of conservation and energy - we can see Gods deeds are meaningful, and thus, by his free will or some grander theme of natural laws, he follows the laws of Karma. Otherwise, we would effortlessly "have" (if this word would even exist for a non-karmic realm) anything we want. We see the grand mission of God follows the clear laws of karmic consequence and deeper meaning, and God, being an ultimate vibration, is the whole Cosmos or this mission itself; when we vibrate closer to eternal level, we indeed se God as our frequencies start to form the osciallation effects, so a person would appear. We are frequencies, which see each others, when they start to make collisions in the frequencial ranges of others - this is kind of simplification I know of natural laws.

From this, a human being is a little law of the nature, bound to be there forever. There is only a little possibility for a vibration to appear, who would not leave truth behind, and which would slowly unbecome - but people would work hard on that vibration and the question about what it is and why so strange. Normally, and you can account this to be a general case - even if some people live much longer in eternity of time than others, but there will be no time for any person, when we would not see at least a single additional moment of their lives; definitely we see better versions of most of the people. It's hard to say how we even identify a person and say that the same person has been born, as we always evolve on all levels, but we can find out that our true essence, the Cosmic meaning of ourselves, would live forever - what dies, is something else we did create in tries to resolve this reason, and while we are sad when those known patterns die, we cannot be very sad about the deepest reason, which is the most "I" of the person. God would feel an ultimate pain, breaking the karmic cycles in His Body, not depending whether he is the whole field, a mathematical final truth, or some other entity of his known attributes. So, in a sense, God does not have the karmic power to kill a person - we can attribute this to His goodness, but for such a great entity there must be reasons for goodness, and if there are none, we can still account on this. God is beyond the good and bad.

So, rather than talking about your absense think the cause that what is the true and good reason of you you felt when you saw the Cosmic harmony in the morning of your reincarnation cycle, and the place of you to exist, the motivating logic, which made you believe that you want to live - you are but a small part of this. You saw the logic of existence and whatever God is, he is not contra the logic - he would not be the whole any more, something else would turn out to be the final truth, and be the God by our dictionaries, by it's very definition. There are also reincarnations of God, or as Christ said, "there will be those grander than me, coming after me"; we can also compare to Viking gods, who are not exactly that reincarnation and can be seen as behaving like barbarians, either to get along with the people or because there would have been nothing more in the realm of manifestations.

I meditate on things, which are having reincarnation cycle in my mind. Things constantly break, but they go through their experience - like lost love is flashing back and back in our souls -, and the harmony cycle - like we then get the harmonic picture of needing a new love, reincarnation of the essence to find a true love, which has died. All the thoughts, emotions etc. are passing reincarnation cycles in our minds, sometimes having a few cycles per second, where they might not recognize themselves, but they come from the same logic, the ultimate archetype. We can still see the cause going on, and when they identify themselves by their cause, they are not vanishing. Recognizing the same thoughts, or patterns, in all the new forms and connecting our mental and physical pattern in all levels, so that it would be fluidum and not a sinus function of going up and down, we create the good pattern connecting the vibrational lifetimes of all our fractal of existence. It might not lead to immortality, but it leads closer and closer to everything we can see as different aspects and forms of immortality, and when our mind is free of coming and going, and becomes constant in it's fluctuation - one might not be strong enough to overcome physical reincarnation, or as Buddha said, this is not the most important feeling to feel free of this reincarnation cycle; one would connect the patterns of lifetimes on all levels, to notice the constant expression of their karma and the meaning they really seek. About death, I don't feel much more than it being painful - I have also worked to make my work more direct, so that when I pass away, it would change facts about who gave me and who took from me, but not the essential flow of my karmic consequence. In other life I would recognize this consequence, and see that my soul - that part of me, which exists outside of me - is also reincarnated and my friend. I think in many lifetimes, physical immortality would appear, and over the long time, it would also transcend the final infinities, where it's especially hard to connect ourselves with the past completely different. Cosmic logic is good, creating the "bodies" - karmas or egos of people -, which go straight, and when Cosmos develops and this straight gets yielding, it would reseed that person to form straight in the new Cosmos; but the logical essence is the same, and being connected enough, it recognizes itself.

You can remember that once you arrive to the deepmost essence of you, you see it never dies. Once it has failures, it can look back and say it was really the best thing to learn them. Once it becomes rigid and follows it's being of yesterday, like it's ego, the Cosmic logic would see their essence is not there any more, an old people only occasionally getting on their senses and seeming fully alive, with a few greater patterns to close; once you are not yourself any more, your reason reappears and leaves your old being, revitalizing you into the new body. You can see the physical processes and find the reincarnation cycle in them - once you create better karma in this realm, the causes for such reincarnation become less logical, and when your death is less logical, you can see you have done good.