There have been times (lots actually) that my breath is unable to flow properly. I can feel it stop in my chest but it's not complete. It's been this way awhile now and it feels heavy 😌now that I'm able to go deeper into my meditations, there are moments that my energy rises freely, and I'm always wanting more! The stillness with presence is overwhelmingly beautiful. I'm in a beginning phase of this process that is shifting my entire world. It's excitingly terrifying! I'm SERIOUSLY thankful to have found people to connect with and learn from! I'm quickly understanding the importance of community 🌏
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I have this thing, what I call "negative thinking".
I do not stop the negative physical energy, but I know it's also doing it's thing and this thing is important.
You can let this breath problem be free, and pay a meditative attention - sense this "empty energy", so that it becomes alive. Thing you pay attention to - in your mind, they become alive, from the unconscious entities they initially are. So feel this thing, which is kind of not a thing but lack of a thing, and energize this "negative energy" with your attention; it becomes a living form - a living, negative energy. In such form it's better able to do it's work and you reach closer to state, where the negative energies heal themselves. The negative energy - it's purpose is to unbecome, in it's connections with cause and effect it feels the Logic that it does everything necessary to unbecome; but this is a hard and complex path, so it needs to do all it's tricks. Once you do not feel only the positive things, which are made of energy; but you also feel the negative things, which are made of absence of energy - they, also, become conscious in your mind, and as they become conscious, they do their work much better. They go away and they come back with more subtle forms of this energy, solving this as well.
In this mind thing - maybe this remark does not belong here, but I found out; if I concentrate my awareness on material world, on my material process, it becomes conscious as well - so the matter becomes to live and follow it's laws better.
About the other part, the good things - I'm the kind of personality, who finds good in both Heaven and Hell; I just tell you for fun, you can also feel all the negative things :P I'm a little scared to say that ..but, generally, I like that you are shifting to new realities and I like that some Kundalini people really find communities as well :P In my own process, I'm recovering now, but I only found emptiness, I did not want anything any more - I just wanted to go through this Hell completely, and make sure I grow into a man, that I experience all this darkness I can see. I'm completely feared by the heaven - if I raise my vibration and go to the good flow, maybe later I have all those weaknesses of a person, who has not seen life :) Well sorry I want to show this negativity always ..don't trust me in this, rather you can somewhat trust me in handling negative process - I don't remember, what it feels to have friends :D I had this soul family, but they seem to be gone somewhere, they do not vibrate with this Hell I found, but I saw a Vision that I have my last journey in this lower world - so I took the time, so many creatures I never see any more, who I know so many lifetimes, so it's worthy to live in this Hell and see what I can do. It's boy's thing :D What should I say ..welcome to Heaven or something, or nice to see you getting there :) I be coming also one day, but I need to go through all this chemistry with all those demons, and really understand the Truth of this thing. I think many people experience these Dark Nights, but I'm not even sure whether you are like this :P
Thank you, it's all so interesting!
Brittany, Thx for your post. I'm also thankful to have just recently found this community, I'm also new to this Kundalini rising process, and the energy, flow, breathing are changing and evolving with every meditation. I finding after that my breathing has evolved and now I'm able to detect very subtle differences in energy intensity and flow based on how each breadth is done. Breadth can range from deep, nasal, shallow, soft, hard, fast (sometimes breath of fire) , medium, slow for each of inhale & exhale, and it all has subtle differences in resulting movement and intensity of energy. I find in most cases I'm not explicity trying to control my breadth, but my body/Kundlini is directing the type of breathing.
During any meditation session, my breathing changes every few breaths. Sometimes the breath stops midway, is not complete, and on ocassion there isn't any flow of energy with a given breadth. One thing that is constant is that breathing, energy and flow continue to evolve, change and generally grow more intense with practice.
Wish you the best with your Kundalini experiences and journey!