My life

Hi, I’m new here. I’m looking for some help, so I’ll give my background kundalini journey and my current situation. I was born open to my abilities and would consciously shift back home to higher sphere. chrinokimetic was something that was a thing as a child in shifting consciousness until I was 4. I was then heavenly monitored through docs and schooling. By abilities disappeared at 4.

Although there was a few experiences inbetween. I was trained/schooled in the astral by these beings. That started from 4 till my late teens. Trained to seek out dark energy and transmute it. After the training, this is what I was assisted in out of body till I was 25 when I was reactivated. Chronokinetic was used. I was in a very depressed way. Gave up consciously and wanted out of this existence. There was no reason for it. Just got into that space and had enough. I was laying on my bed in the afternoon. When I felt 3 beings by the side of my bed. I could not see them but could strongly sense them. Then chronokinetic kicked in. The room was spinning really fast. My thoughts were fast too. This tunnel appeared as I buried my head in the pillow. I begged for it stop and it did. From that point on it was like a switch turned back on. I jumped out of bed with a huge burst of energy and get go. I started to clean my house. I pulled the hoover out and started cleaning my floor and started to see this one eye staring at me in my eyelids. Every time I blinked I could see it. This lasted for a few days. Then this one night in bed when shutting my eyelids I saw this main chained up to a wall, it was gruesome scene. I then spent days terrified to go to sleep. This lasted a week. Then this one night I closed my eyelids and this man popped up. He was stood on a cliff just looking at me smiling. He looked like he was from the 70s. He spoke into me saying “yes hi! I died here, I went hiking with friends and i slipped. I’m ok though, I’m happy.“ in that moment I know I was talking to spirit and I felt at ease all of a sudden. But i lost my mind out of fear, it consumed me. The next day I attended college and out of know where I had this overwhelming feeling. I jumped up out my seat and ran out crying. I then fell to the ground and had a break down. The tutor ushered me to the college counsellor immediately. I sat with her for hours. Telling her everything. She then handed me this card and said there is nothing mentally wrong with u and u need to go see this women. I looked at it and it said spiritual medium. I was very skeptical but thought what choice do I have. It was the next day I attended. I turned up and yes very shy and cautious, there was people sat in a circle. This women stood up who was a teacher. She apologised to the room and insisted she needs to talk to me. she run over with arms out saying oh Iv been waiting for u. She wrapped her arms around me and I had this instant recognition deep. She then gave me a whole life reading but said this isn’t for fun dear, these are prompts and I will learn why further on my path. She then said we will meet again. I went back the next week but she said no dear years down the line we will meet. So I left it at that. My abilities peeled open bit by bit and was a very lonely path at the beginning. The visions were constantly streaming in but other senses were switching on too. I met this man who I started a relationship with. He had this entity attached to him. I wasn’t aware it was attached straight away. I was being woken in the night to pokes and crawling on the bed, to the point the bed violently being shaken. It got to the point I was to scared to sleep in the bedroom or with light off, Then I saw the entity appear in the window rejection. we were stood in the kitchen looking out the window and the entity was stood behind us both just staring. It then turned and walked into the bedroom, The relationship became violent. He was diagnosed bipolar so put it down to that but I started to learn these vibrational crawling feelings before he would snap. So I was prepared before he would go at me. A few times I caught the entity bouncing in and out the back of his head/neck. The relationship got worse in violence. But also I was developing at a rate which was very fast. I was like an antenna walking lie detector and could sniff out intent in anyone. Then something changed. I woke up one morning and I hear this voice saying do not project out, stay there. I’m in paralysis state thinking but why can’t I move. So I’m laying there not projecting and this energy comes down at my feet which seemed like it came from above. IT hit my feet and moved up in waves. It was very powerful. The sounds I heard were wooshing and glitchy. Each morning this happened for a couple of months. Then the energy built up in my pelvic and I heard this rawing. I though oh this sounds like hell. A voice saying no don’t move. Then I heard birds chirping. Bells chiming and metal screeching. This wet fluid electric feeling started to move up my spine from the bottom in slow penetrating drips. It worked up to the solar plexus then would stop. This lasted few months. In between all these im seeing these beings. Different types and there in my room. One day I was laying on my sofa and half asleep. I heard ayana and like someone punching me in the back. That next morning laying on my stomach I woke in paralysis. I feel the fluid moving up to my heart chakra. I’m hearing all these sounds all at once. birds, bells, ppl talking at once. I feel myself started to become bigger from my heart area and float. I feel bigger than my whole body but chest area is expanding. Then it stopped abruptly. few weeks later the energy started working upto my throat and ears. Now that was a weird experience. My ears felt like 200miles per hour winds blowing into them. This metal screeching was loader. I could hear this water fountain trickerling and flutes being played. music Iv never heard before. There was this radio static tuning sound and ppl talking all at once. The energy hitting my feet in waves were pushing up through my body into the ears and like a string woosh. It pieces straight through my anja and a tunnel appeared in green/grey/purple colours and a man stood on other side. The visions through the day were crazy. I documented everything. When it reached my crown I was out on a walk. It was sunny and was looking up at the clouds. I had this senses the clouds were talking to me. That’s wen I saw the white bubble around my whole body except there was a hole above my head, open. Felt exposed. IT was my birthday coming up and I kept having strong feelings of lifting up out my body whilst going about my day. Then my birthday came. That’s wen things became very strange and real. It was late at night and in my livingroom With friends. I was sat in floor doing something on my laptop when I instantly stopped. I looked over at the corner of the room and felt strong presence. An energy come at me. Hit my feet. I stood up in middle of my livingroom and the energy was overwhelmingly powerful moving up my legs. Through my entire body. It was like ecstacy. I fell to the floor unable to stand on my feet. Everyone froze asking if I was ok. I crawled into my kitchen on my hands and knees and gripped to the ledge to try and pull myself up. Took 10 mins to regain myself. I was smiling in this energy inside me. Then it stopped. I walked back into my livingroom and every light in the house blew and my laptop. no one knew what to say. It was 2am in morning and called my mum coz I didn’t know what to think. She come back saying weird u were born exactly at this time 30 years ago. Then a week later is wen it came to a final. That’s what I call it for first stage, final. I was up in bed with partner surfing eBay. In my minds eye I saw this lady float through the window. she was dressed in these robes and looked beautiful but I also had this recognition with her. She spoke with her eyes. She said “it is time” she come closer to the bed and told me to stay still. “Don’t be afraud”. She leaned over and did something at the bank of my head/neck. She turned me off! I found myself hovering in this void of nothing. I started to panic trying to kick my feet or move but I thought oh I have no body. I quickly realised I was just a conscious thought process in this void. Continued to just hover trying to use eyes to look but I was like oh I dwas not have eyes because my body is no more. Then I had this thought come in if being inside my body and viewing through my eyes. as if they are just lense for my conscious self to peer through. That’s wen realisation hit me and it was all along in a body. I knew then what I was. But I continue to just be in thought in the void, I then felt lonely. I thought we’ll I can’t be the only one here. Where is all the other consciousnesses. This pin prick of light appeared from the void and it grew closer. as it grew closer I noticed these streaks of gold glistening light reaching towards me. I then saw myself hovering in my true form. Arms displayed out and this gold light touch’s my fingers. It starts to move through my arms and I feel this most powerful love ever, Iv never experienced in my body. It was warm fuzzy and unconditional. As it continued to fill me in this gold light I noticed something in the Center of the light. At first it was grass illuminated in gold. Fields going for ever in gold. There was this gold brick hump bridge which led to this massive gold walled city. I was in ore and wanted to go within the walls to see. I zoomed closer passed the walls. There was roads cobbled and crystal shiney in all colours but illuminated gold. There was buildings there with gold domes on top and holes as windows. But I saw no doorways. There was this river glowing in gold and it was full of life, everything in existence was in this moving river running right through the city. but there was no one in sight. I wanted to stay forever but the light pulled me back. I’m still hovering with arms displayed but I’m filled in this gold light all the way through me. Then the light speaks into me. Tells me to prepare and succumb the light when it’s time. Then in the void to the right I see a hand. I grab it and next minute I’m opening my eyes and I’m sat up on the end of my bed. Partner still surfing eBay and the lady in robes still there. She repeats what the light says. Prepare and succumb wen the time comes. She left and that was that. The relationship got bad, very bad to the point I was beaten daily and in constant pain. It was 4am in the morning and I was woken up by something. This deep tone was in my head and I sensed this feeling of get up and run as fast as u can, so I did. He woke up coming after me, he wanted to kill me. I got away and he was arrested. My life then changed completely. Within few months I met my current partner. Since the gold light filled me Iv always seen it say below my heart. Wen I met my current partner I saw it come up out of me. we were holding hands while watching tv and I felt it come up out of me and went down my arm and into his arm. I could see it expanding through him. Now weeks later I discovered something. Something that was impossible. I spent 17 years trying to conceive and docs told me I could not have any so wen I met my partner I had already excepted that it will never happen. Well it happened. Miracle baby. Named him Phoenix because he was a twin which lost his sibling in the womb. It was very fitting. But now he’s here he’s filled in good light all around him. Just before the pandemic hit I knew something was about to unfold in this dimension. I knew it was bad. I was panicking at my family but they thought I was just crazy. Iv documented many visions and oob experiences leading upto pandemic and during. I came across this group. Someone was looking for righteous. I stepped up and said ye ok. Others did to. A lot of ppl were skeptical but turned out all that did step up have heart centers Open. We all started to experience attacks from the dark. I went down a deep rabbit hole and discovered a lot. I had to take the group elsewhere to calm all the dark energy attacks. I then started to hear home. The higher sphere. Reminding me of before incarnation. this I should of shared at the begining of this story. It’s always been there. I remember living in piece. Then I was called up. there was a tower and an angel living on the top. i was not the only person called. There is many. She told me I need to go and incarnate in void. I was sent in my way and I didn’t like what I was given. Meaning the path/life/ body. But I still went because it was a matter of emergency to incarnate. So I went. I entered this blankness and my form peeled away. I was sucked downwards and incarnation began. My memories of being a baby in my pram is all there, all of it and beyond. So home started to call through me again calling me celeste, That is my angel form, celeste. At thee time this coming through I had met another female who also has exact same memory as me of being called up to the point I knew exactly what she looked like. Home kept talking into me telling me to tell this girl ur celeste. Turns out this girl and me do know each other and she has always been aware of celeste. Then the rabbit hole goes deeper. I thought oh second stage kundalini. Iv spent the last year with this righteous group and energy building up in me. Exactly the same as the first round except this time it’s stronger and more intense. But then something dark entered the group and all believe his words and they turned there back and went down his road instead. This left me heartbroken and feeling lonely. But then one of these ppl used psychic attacks on me. Took 2 days to fight it off. I’m walking down the road on my own and have this urge to pull a cord in my solar plexus. I tug it and tug, putting strength into pulling it out. I managed to release it and wen I did this thing come at me. I’m then fighting in the street with this entity and looking like a crazy person. The fight is out of control and I struggle. I’m hat wen something happened. I pulled up this etheric power from the pit of me and forced it up. At same time I felt andrenalin on high power. It pushes up out my crown and this dragon is there. It’s me. This dragon. I know longer see my angelic form in void. I’m this dragon and I push back this entity. I’m crying and screeching in the void. But I can simultaneously be in the void whilst in body. im the dragon crying and screeching and it starts to breath fire into the void right into the darkness. I am angry, hurt and upset and in total full defence mode. Later that day I sense these ppl who put psychic attacks in me trying to look into me further and they get a shock and see who I am. They bank off and the attacks stop abruptly. Now I’m being hacked on my devices. But it’s not just me. All the group are being hacked and monitored. A friend says no u turned on the lightening sword u need to calm the dragon down asap. So I do and it hovers on my shoulders and I can sense myself consumed in flames, I can’t remove it now she is out. She’s defending my every part. But she won’t stop screeching. I hear her stomping her feet doing circles around me crying and screeching. Smoking out her nostrils. She then comes in for attention/affection the continues to pace around me. Energy of ecstasy is conciously moving through me. There is sources poking into me that is authority figures and trying to break me down. I’m at the bottom of a deep rabbit hole and now alone with dragon up. Now I’m stuck