Hello friends, I have been in the community for a while, I always read your posts, I would like you to give me advice or tools regarding an idea that has persisted for several days in my head, I have been feeling for a few weeks that the kundalini awakening has been a very strong experience in my life, to the point that everything I was has dissolved in time, I lost friends, family members distanced themselves from me due to my lack of prosperity and ambition for material things, it is not really that I did not have or do not have long-term material projects, it happens that the process has been so complex in symptoms that I have only been surviving the last 10 years, currently I find myself in another much more stable state, however I feel disoriented, I have the feeling that a hurricane went through my life, taking everything in its path and I can not help but look back and feel nostalgia for everything I have lost, even having had the life of my dreams, I wonder how you grieve the fact that this energetic awakening changes our plans and the course of our life, I feel quite alone and I feel that all my potential and achievements that I could have cultivated on a professional and personal level were not possible to achieve due to the same process, sometimes I feel like a loser and a failure. I can't help but cry as I write these lines... please if anyone feels identified, I would like you to give me some perspective.
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Hi Claudia
I’m understanding your overwhelming frustration, pain, response and perhaps resentment to Kundalini. I too find myself dipping in and out of these feelings. Even though I’m many years into Kundalini I still find more questions than answers.
But, how you are feeling is a real and valid even though we hear many a spiritual/kundalini narrative about healing and bliss etc.
there’s so much to be said but I can’t give you the answers perhaps you would like. However, what I have found very helpful is being able to share my experience and day to day challenges with other women who have fully experienced their awakening alongside their day to day responsibilities etc. I would love to talk with you and be an avenue for you to share your reality of Kundalini. On another note I know many people are suffering from isolation and loneliness and I suspect much of it is recognising we have been through the darkness of winter that creates a longing for connection.
Message me if you would like to discuss further. Lemon_Energy2003@yahoo.co.uk