Where do you start and finish with a Kundalini awakening? Profound, loneliness, energy pumping through my body for years, isolation, a bit of psychosis, love bombed, physical symptoms and absolutely frightening endless fear and pain. My ego tried to resist with constant pressure to commit suicide, and unable to share any of this because when I tried, I was treated with a lot of caution from friends. The fear it creates was endless and the scope of the awakening ranged from a constant calling to go home, oneness, heaven and infinity and everything and nothing hologram, cosmic consciousness into the masculine. Then into the dark night of the soul into the deep feminine and messages from the feminine consciousness.
During these four years I watched all my dreams and kept notes. This last year I have recorded 21 YouTube videos that explain the symbols in those dreams and their meaning in relation to my awakening. They are in numerical order as my awakening unfolded.
I made these videos with newly awakened individuals in mind, in the hope that they can navigate or to have a better understanding of their experiences and some milestones along the way.
The final video shares my completion and wholeness/enlightenment. Phew!
Also this is the second time i see a relation between kundalini and ego...
Check the thread '' cold breeze''
Good post.
I think the majority of people undergoing kundalini initiations,are connected with the feminine side of things..
I remember the first days of my terror (poltergeist activity at it's best),i was trying to sleep,when i cought my self speaking in sanskrit... I wrote the words down,and next day i think i decoded the meaning...
'' forever with the goddess'.
As you said:fear and terror for a long time... I thought i was having evil entities in my house,so i was avoiding being around family, walking around the town trying to figure out how to fix all this... Eventualy my body crushed from all this anxiety and physical exhaustion and i ended up in hospital.....
Then i found out that it's me triggering weird phenomena that manifest physicaly.. Still have them from time to time...
One other time while i was typing on my tablet,my third eye wrea flashed and i saw something like smalll lightings shooting on the screen.. Of course the tablet stoped working for a while..
In any case i relate with you and all others as well.. It is an extremely difficult experience and it can last even a decade.. For me it started at 2014 and still i can't claim i'm doing fine..
In fact no.. It is not extremely difficult,it is hell...
And you guys undergoing this stuff,for me you deserve a medal..