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I'm unsure where to start.

I have recollection of before birth and it wasn't another life in a body. I came from higher heavens. I was ordered to incarnate and can recall what my orders where and entering a void gate. I was sucked downwards and my real form peeled away. My incarnation then began. But from birth till 4 years old, my consciousness speaks shifted back to who ordered my incarnation. She did stuff to prepare me. Around 4 I started to become confused with my mother here and my mother there who ordered this incarnation. There was a clear conversation in my head of "choose to take your mother in this incarnation" although I really wanted to choose home, I ended up choosing incarnated mother. It wasn't really an option. When that choice was made, everything changed and I stopped shifting consciously. Before it all stopped, I was open fully to all my abilities; even chronokinesis. I was left partially open so training in astral could start. As soon as I grounded fully in my physical form, the lessons begun. At the same time, school started to pull me out of class. They would take me into this room with doctors. They would do weird tests on me. They continued to do this weekly for 5 years, from age 4-9ish. One day I discovered I was the only one in the hole school being pulled out. Around age 9 I kicked up a stinker and refused to allow them to repeatedly test me with splat cards and frequency tests with there wooden box. Enough was enough. By the time I turned age 12 in high school I was taken out of all important lessons and forced into a group called compact plus. We did no work and was taken out on day trips. Basically I failed every gcse due to pulling me out.

When I turned 16 and not living with parents. I was living with this boy and one night we were visited by something. I woke up to scratching on my feet. The bring was super tall but completely thick black void. Eyes were huge glowing white/blue eyes. It spoke to me with its eyes. Told me not to fear and prepare for life to fall apart with in a week. Told me it's all for good purpose. Within a week I was homeless and ended up in care. Following this I found myself in very bad relationships, some abusive. Life was so intense right up to full kubdskini enlightenment. It was also speeded up with assistance of these beings.

2 years ago I requested access to my childhood medical records coz I wanted answers. I was failed through my education and set up to fail in life. But these tests they did to me I never ever will forget. So I request these through my docs. The manger comes back and says " I'm sorry, in my 30 year career, never have I ever comes across this, there is a red flag gov stamp stopping me from accessing anything from your childhood." So if requested again and still being blocked. Why the hell would the uk gov prevent me accessing files that I have every right to?

Not only this, I'm trying to better myself by trying up setup business online for the last 2 years. I've been restricted from eBay, Etsy, Facebook, twitter, much more. All appealed and shown my id but it just totally ignored. Something hugely off. All my abilities I am able now and they are still unfolding. They know that I am consciously and doing everything to prevent me from anything.

I'm being shadow banned all over the place. Do not know what to do