Spiritual Awakening

Yes but it's hard to identify with "we". Before first awakening in this life, I liked the medievial tradition of having strength with discomfort, sickness or any bad event. I think it was called "bravery", in a personal sense where one does not give up their positive thinking in case of trouble. In process of awakenings, or the awakening, I have gained the zenitude of letting go.

In my view, I can only keep my mind straight when I accept all the things the nature has given us as troubles, and like I cannot hate a thing, which falls on me, I cannot hate the death, sickness or pain. More and more, I can rather accept that we change through this, so any pain is seed of something. Even if I die, after death I go through the life pains and solve many archetypes before I am clean enough to be born again. Some people can get stuck in this - even Buddha believed we can fall into hell, a place where our discomfort about the external world and real laws of internal world has created us a very bad hologram of reality, a bad dream, where our brokenness cannot appear in reality, but is burned by the fire principle instead - we are stuck with very basic laws of the reality, so they burn and burn us.. It's hard to call this rebirth - reincarnation is supposed to be, gradually and baybe yielding and not directly, rebirth into higher realm; I would call this debirth, which is the opposite, or deincarnation - we are borning into realm, which is less real; we are born into reality from unreality, not the opposite direction. Hell is the condition, which is burning by the degree by which we have to change to fit into higher adobes; in Buddhism, flow through heavens and hells is free; karma is not only punishment for bad, but also the appreciation of good, and even a good soul can be in hell if it's useful for their development - their feeling of getting something out of sacrifice, for example still creating better karma for being otherwise left to hells, maybe for enemies, would show them that when they personally suffer, being in hell is good for common good. To make this gain maximum, they would go to hell in their free will. But generally, the process of going down is good, because the world would win from lack of us, and thus, we get some better karma out of it - from losing. Death is kind of this, we go through somewhat lower vibration, but it's a very high vibration of our reason, our harmonic existence, which brings us back. When the reality knows it's really a loss if it would lose any living being, and it knows it by vibrating our own deeds - so we feel it as ourselves, as feeling personally the higher harmony of us. We, the most deeply, are the reason for ourselves, which is our essential nature. Reason is a strong force with will and reaction, we call it meaning of life - hardly, we feel alive without feeling this, so in this feeling, there must be our lives. When I fear death, I never fear the loss of my personal body so much, but I fear that all the things I move in reality would stop, I feel my higher reason being much stronger there. People, who feel worthless, they tend to punish or kill themselves in one way or another.

From this process of death and rebirth we can see that being born, we tend to go very straight - we are given the body and identity, which knows itself quite straight. This is ego. By this, the nature needs to destroy us every once and a while - when we go straight, but our reason is compassing to reasons in changing nature, we suddenly go nowhere, so our body would become weaker as the strength comes from the nature, from moving straight; we might have more life experiences, but the direction in current life is not straight any more. So, finally, we are not ourselves any more - we are not connected to our reason. We would appear as losing the burning sparkle of life, becoming somewhat distant and like a white shadow, where it's hard to feel the element of life. Then, naturally, we pass our experience and die. After this, our first cause, the reason comes back, we feel the cosmic harmony in the fact of our existence, in union with Cosmos, and this would lead the process of cause and effect to reacreate our active existence in matter. Physically, people when old, also pass their reasons to children, who can revitalize the experience. This is the materialist reincarnation, which is equal in the chain of causes and effects, letting our first reason live, and thus satisfying the problem for which we exist, to a degree.

This kind of death and rebirth exists in any kind of mathematical process, which is not more or less specifically constrainted by conflicting variables. They create some type of logical processes or identities, which go through existence, eating up their direction, to their reason reappearing as their feeling of harmony, which they have to turn into their new personalities.

Natural death, as our straight and alive direction becomes curved and dead in relation to changing nature, removes a body, which is not fully ourselves any more, but only a Nature's reflection on it's past and collection of more general, repeating knowledge. If it would live further, it would not be us any more. It lets us to be born in new body and new direction harmonized with nature and thus forming a part of causes and effects, which is our deeper identity. We can go again in all childhood vibrations, which align us with society with equal tempo to others. What happens to us, is only the birth - death happens to someone else, kind of, as it's not a harmonic of our vital period any more. We forget the first years, but from some day, we sense it as ourselves.

In any mathematical system, reincarnation occurs - we can see it in every part and aspect of the nature, from thoughts to feelings to activities, we see that something is being born, living and dead; every day we are being born, becoming adult, becoming old and dying, so that the dreams can revitalize our direction. How we overcome all this fractal is controlling, how we overcome the whole process.

The sickness, it can also go up or down like reincarnation and deincarnation - but in the longest run, we find out our direction being slightly wrong, compared to our would be, and as we are logical variables, which want to be True, this Falseness would appear as pain; this approaces gradually, through repetition and evolution, from an atheist or materialist perspective, but in more unified view, where the future and distance matter less, it's a very direct process of being hit by our direction.

All those negatives, naturally, if we are not having almost free will to be doomed - free will to be good is generally guaranteeing the goodness, as maybe we cannot work enough to help the rich, but we can, in our neutrality, still keep a little good angle, losing which, in infinity, would cost much to many. Anything in reality, be it fast or slow, if it's always going up, even little by little, if worth infinitely much in terms of infinity, where it leaves a lasting change. This is the value of life - life equals infinity, and so a positive sign is always an infinitely big gain.

For the criminals and souls in hell - for somebody, much higher than us, we are criminals and souls in hell ourselves; all they would see in our existence is how something is burning out the bad seeds in us, by repeated failure in something important we cannot see. For them, feeling the greater harmony than us, it would be the biggest pain to not care about those variables. When we treat the hellish creatures, we determine our karma about how the highest creatures of our worlds would treat us, and what we receive as our perspective of our past karma when we reach so far ourselves. So, always, we have to punish the bad of the crime, but for the good, we must give something - when we vibrate them up in an absolute manner, so that they are really better, still being criminals somewhere, the reality would lift up by cleaning up the possibilities, and that's something we cannot avoid when we want to exist in infinity; we have to discern the good and bad in others, and treat the variables instead of the persons - a person, the part living there, can not feel it's badness so clearly, but they are rather the logical values, which do not see far and optimize their local climate, passing the bad to others. When we help our enemy in matters, which leave lasting good, we justify the help for our past, where we could not justify being good in long terms, lasting flows of our lifetimes and the generations we see in history - my experience now, looking back, is the infinity of lifetimes, and others have bigger or smaller infinities or amounts of infinity-like properties, and in infinity, very small things start to matter.

These negative experiences, they are always a calibration one way or another - they are calibrations when you look back. Otherwise, you do not have even the will to walk further. But in relation to karma we have to know that we can also help others, and then they have better karma - we can help them by learning the war of them, so they become more innocent and less dangerous, and a creature which cannot have a danger on us, is always better; we can also help them by utilizing their good will. Then, we can also get the experience of what they are when they are given the opportunity. When our tolerance gets higher, they have done less to us, thus deserving less punishment and thus having better karma - punishment itself, it would coldly come from the cycles of energy and lack of it; the cycles with more energy, they go up, and others go down. In the end, the nature needs to be very sure that the energy is flowing in and not out, and so if energy of a part is mainly having effects on the whole, and this is where it earns back (by this, our survival instinct often depends on not feeling worthless), we definitely punish them by not letting them to have this lasting effect. Exercising some form of karma is mathematically not avoidable - if energy mentioned in one place is also energy in relation to energy mentioned in another place, then the system, which gets hotter when the parts and the whole get hotter, will definitely calibrate it's variables so that the parts and the whole start to influence each others; thus creating the effects of karma in all it's complexity.

Karma: it's the fact of receiving energy in parts, which are going to empower this, and losing it in parts, which are going to dispower this; it's also equating the directions, which rationally bring energy, in formulaes with real received energy - good technique seems not like a karmic law, but when it creates a value, it's the energy itself. When telepathy and visions of future start generating energy in real time, using chemistry and it's gentle effects, the experience and evolution reach the same mathematical laws through repetition, using physics, which calibrates towards energy in the hard way. When every part, when it lives, is True and when it does not live, is False, there has to exist a logical matrix, which becomes more true as the beings go up and false as they go down - otherwise, the meaning of the word "energy" or direction being equal to equilibrum, when their limits are calculated, becomes contradictionary; this is the contradiction, which requires the mathematical and physical law of karma. In materialist sense, we need to calibrate towards infinity - other people and the future (or current and past) generations, to vibrate the true value in equation, which tend does not tend to cancel us out in our identity or waves we create (and it's pain when the waves you create in society are not what you meant); the energy, we need to create cycles - every good energy cycle needs to create another; in this, we create the whole. The whole is to survive in the nature. So this proves karma through karmic cycle.

Without laws of karma - we can see that reality would be somehow going in the wrong direction; the effects it creates would not be equal to the cause and wise versa. The mathematical flow of the systems, as well as evolution and finally life with it's future-oriented dynamics would all tend and converge to this energy value. The system, which got this curved, where the causes and effects and their implications do not fit, would have a very strong tension to get this straight - an extreme pressure to achieve the effects of karma. Karma is also a reason for events occuring, which give us experience or are good in direct sense, like automates - when there are hard variables, which prove it's useful, it's also probably a good karma, not a punishment or reward, but the reason itself; aside with meanings we see the hard causes, coming from logic of things, which is like "dead" aspect of matter; but rather it's the foundation and absolute, where we found new things, instead of creating them. We can see that every system, when we have "good" and "bad" defined in it's interplay of variables, it would optimize towards good if it's free enough to create some logic or optimize into meaningful cycles. It would also converge to create all attributes of life - not only as living organisms, but also as logic of itself, and tendencies of it's parts, which would resemble learning, generalizing, and other operations, which are unavoidable in case it wants to get into higher energy states. The energy state of life, which constantly works to remove physical and chemical pressure, is high. When we add telepathy and sense of the future, we can see that such attributes would appear instantly when reality is created or has become, and become stronger and stronger as it lives.

From this, being sick and healing, being dead and reborn, those are the negatives, but they become useful experiences in time, in the flow of reality, where the warmth of the potential is destinied to flow into the coldness of existence by laws of termodynamics. When the potential is warmer than the reality, it bounds the reality in ways, which let this flow into the coldness of reality. The laws of Christ, Buddha or other personalities, who told us about the higher infinities, are then the biggest tension of reality itself and every meaningful part of it, and what appears as evilness for the higher, is being the limit of the lower - around us, we see our own karma in many forms and from many perspectives, and we create the reaction reality has towards us.

As the reality gains something from all our mistakes, failures and deaths, and especially from our gains and well-doings, it's always flowing higher; so, in the long term, we lose less than we took away, and we gain more than we were giving - through the sharp nature of the power of gain, energy or the logic that we are approaching the direction, which creates less tension to the life and the matter feeding it, there is like an unknown force, which makes every action do a little more good than it wanted or saw, and a little less bad as it eliminates this, so from all our activities and non-doings, good or bad, we receive a little more than we wanted to give. All this cycle of punishment and reward, it's a little bit directed up, as the bad deeds are impossible to do so much bad and all the good deeds are somehow empowered by the natural direction of the world, as everybody and everything, even the blindest mathematical laws, not yet born to be participiated, are helping those flows. So, in the long run, we are somewhat forgiving. As I appreciate good and bad, I do not deny that some creatures, compared to others, are bound to go down, or that they are absolutely negative - but in the reality, every process is there because it has some probability to be, and every process is in reaction to make reality better in general; as we don't help those, we also do not gain experience to get the same mistakes straighter in their higher and more subtle forms, which appear later.

But the nature is also killing, and by helping what it wants to kill, too much, we can become part of their misdoings, which become ours, and then the nature would punish us for exceed of goodness. For their bad sides, especially the waves of the causes and effects of them (and we tend to experience the results of our causes and effects as ourselves, through our calibration of reason and through their karmic consequences, where we might do what we want to receive, even if it's the lower and more archaic world) - I think the bad souls, they can usually live and solve their deeds for infinity, more or less, in isolation, even from the reality, as the reality itself is interested in curing something as more strongly as harder it is to cure it, and it wants to see it living, even the worst it can, but they cannot live in society, especially in sense of getting their things done, so their connection starts to break, between their will and the actual process they are creating in reality. We are bound to surrender the good will, but help and incapacitate the bad will. In some level, we are really only a holographic picture of what we create and deserve in reality, where our deeds and results are the high vibrations of us, but our person and body are the low vibration, and one approximates to reflect the other. When our causes and effects create impossibility, it breaks our field and in our vibrational level, hits back to ourselves, creating symmetric problems in our health and reasons to be reborn. We have to cope with past karma, so there are many beings coming from our past lives, and reflections of ourselves in our youth - it gives the direct meaning to it, and it's value in the future of it's own times, and then reflects into their health there, even into the logic they do about the future, so after we hurt the weaker, maybe we are not even able to reach here, but we died young - through the effects of Schroedinger cat, we would find out that we misinterpreted our reality as being higher than it actually is, the reflections about the past would show us it was much worse, and in one way or another, it hits back. The same way, we should not treat our sickness or death bad - maybe in our youth, the reality and it's logic were less demanding, and solving those parts of the vibration was impossible; then, we would not have even felt this pain. There, the pain can go up - we only feel it as we accelerate, as the vibration of Space goes up and our relative vibration, including the dream about reality we have, thus goes down and we feel the problems generally associated with the vibration going up, such as the vibrational calibration we would have in the space ship bringing us to higher world, or the one we feel as we ascend higher. We are very realistic about ourselves, when we see us as a mathematical process solving in reality, and this does not happen on the level of atoms and electrons, but rather on the level of causes and effects, which are able to transcend this - they directly hold, not though some repeated rule of a part or a whole.

Here, the cycles of life and death, health and sickness, day and night - they are very natural. They solve into the whole as a constant progress, wherever they occur and whatever they are. We are strongest when we can synchronize to this higher vibration of good and bad, overcoming their trivial oppositions, and also trust in our nature of getting it better once we go through bad, either in this lifetime or in all the reincarnation cycle, or materialistically, in the reincarnation cycle and in the society, which starts to solve problems, which spread. Once we trust that we are born for good, in a form, which is materially - physically and chemically - composed in a way, which is also physically good and meaningful for matter itself, it's causes and effects (and we would die out without this, being a process not physically stable); all the causes and effects solve and approximate into higher and better, and the feelings of the problems are often coming as we start to solve them, problems themselves being hidden in the dark; we have to transcend our sickness instead of getting rid of it.

In my life, so I don't like pain killers or medicaments, which solve the syndromes instead of the causes - I really want to become comfortable with my sickness, understand it's causes and effects, meditate through my pains, problems, weaknesses and understand the law of nature that the meaning of pain is to change, and the change releases us from tensions we did not even feel, to the liberty we do feel. The hellish souls, they might go down, but without the desire for this higher vibration - they might enjoy the goods and be disturbed by the bads, but they would tell us it is all they ever wanted, the normal life. I do not want to agree with the people, who say they would cure all their sickness and make an Earth to be an ideal place - I would say, we need then to go into much higher vibration, and from perspectives of this, we still see sickness, death and poverty in all this result, even if the absolute level of our feeling is much better. Then, we are going to infinity. As there are things to be solved in end of the time, the reality starts to be more demanding, and the horror we see in the future would be it's reflection of the normal life in the past. When we cure this, we send waves to cure some problem so slight they did not even perceive in the past, and rise their vibration considerably.