Your Awakening Story

Hi Guys!

I'm Marcelo, I'm 28 years old, and recently, 5 months ago, I got my Kundalini activated by a person who manipulates kundalini. I was in a middle of a break up and finishing my master degree, when in dispair and in search of some answers for my life, I went to this person, which said he's been working with kundalini for 12 years old, after being baptized by the Archangel Michael. I had heard about kundalini, but i never investigated on what it actually was, and he didn't gave me a lot information on the subject... So I kindda let him work on my energy, without knowing what I was tapping in.. After that I got to the city where I was studying and got to work on my project. At first it was amazing, I was connected with the plants, the planet, the air! Everything felt so easy, so clean in my mind and I could feel love for everything.. However, 4 hours later my terror began. I went to a friend's house for lunch, and when I got there something started to suffocate me, the energy was dense, my mind started to go to a dark place, by no reason.. I had planned to work on my thesis after lunch, but something in my mind kept saying " don't do it, you don't want to do it, it's lame....". I ignored all of that and went to the library anyway, but as I started to write there's the screaming suicidal thought, that I never had for many many years in my life. I couldn't stop crying.. all this suffering came to my, all the pain that i caused my mother and ex-girlfriend/'s, just laid in the grass and let it all pass through me... it was devastating and I thought it was just a thing, but it wasn't..

Since that day for 3 months, my life turned upside down.. at first I didn't associated it to kundalini. I had this constant pressure in my head, depression, lack of vitality, fatigue, panic attacks, 2 hours of spleep per night, time and space got really strange, suicidal thoughts, a whole bunch of symptons, that now I can see it's all kundalini. Because I was so afraid I went to a Tradicional Chinese Medicine lady, that also works with bioenergetics, and she was able to make most physical symptons go away. However, my mental health is still a mess... I get this strong sensations where I feel that no matter what I do, nothing matters, that somehow there's no hope... Now I feel very guilty for having someone to mess with my energy... I was a joyful person, very empathic and optimistic and I don't get it... My mind can't think straight, always comparing my life to others and a bunch of traumas from my childhood, and some I feel that are even from past-lifes.. It's really strange. Honestly I just wish I could go back in time...

Sorry if this got too sad, or too dark, but I just want to tell you my story. I know I'm not the only one, I want to believe that everything ends eventually, and being connected to the community makes me feel safer.

Thanks so much for being there, for this community!

Looking forward to meet you all!

A lot of love,

Marcelo Miranda