Kundalini and Shaddow Self
I am a psychologist and yoga teacher who has been going through an awakening for over 14 years. 14 years ago I walked away from a hugely successful career as I felt a strong sense I was not living my life purpose and everyone around me thought I was mad. I didn't and it felt right so I could see my kids grow up.
I have had plenty of chaos over the 14 years and the past year has been really intense where I have faced my shadow self and I can no longer hide from who I am and what I have done in the past. I am actually okay about this as it all leads to this path which is right for me and I am truly beginning to see good and bad as the same thing. In my experience, this has been particularly good for dealing with my trauma.
I have so much energy that I use yoga and meditation to manage this but I regularly get suprised and trust the process. I have lost 3 stone, I am sleep deep sleep for 6-7 houts and when my energry is crazy - I harness this to get things done. I am so glad to find this peer support group as I will support to manage my shaddow self which includes: feeling special, people pleasing, not feeeling worthy and needing to feel attractive.
I am being completly open here as I am usually a private person as I know I need to do this to manage my shaddow self. How are you managing your shaddow self?
Thank you. I'm new to all of this and I never thought of the demons that I have been fighting as the shadow self. My shadow self is self-loathing, unaware, easily intimidated, and selfish. I have experienced Kundalini for the past year and a few months ago, November 12, I thwarted it. Prior to that it had guided my actions for 30 years. I remember when I discovered it my senior year of high school and now I feel free.