Hello everyone. This is my first post. Lovely to connect with you all.
I had a kundalini awakening nine years ago. Ever since then, I've seen violet sparkles around me, which I really liked. Recently I noticed that for the last few months, they've gone. I also feel like I've lost interest in my spiritual practices/work - even though the kundalini process is definitely continuing. Has anyone else experienced something like this?
I assume it's most likely part of the cosmic consciousness. For myself I saw "starry eyes" in every person eyes in the shape of a sparkle. I just took it as a biological sign of evolutionary progress.
It was much more significant/noticeable in the very early months of the awakening.
Hi Tara
Yes, i can relate. I know this as the dark night of the soul
I have never lost interest in spiritual process, but I lost interest in work - in my case, I need something more fulfilling. I am very talented and I don't want to fill the pockets of wrong people any more, rather I concentrate on where I really see the end-success.
Losing the interest is deep and mystical thing, and I think I don't have a full explanation, but there are some things to mention from my own introspection. First, interest has several dictionary meanings, and they are connected in the end - either you are attracted to something, or it brings you the future (interest in business or stock market). If you lost interest in those things, then they probably do not bring you the future. With work, when it brings the money or connections or a direct achievement, you feel a good go, but when it does not - it can be impossible to force yourself to do that. Human is a very rational being, asmuch as you can use this word in spiritual context (I definitely can, because I am spiritual and rational/scientific at the same time - as a Buddhist, I can think that those opposites can be true at the same time, and one must transcend the dualities, to not become narrow-minded). So, humans are very rational beings and if you lost interest in sense of attraction, you probably have lost interest in sense of the small benefits you would constantly earn in the future.
I have never felt losing interest in spiritual work, but it feels very calming and relaxing message for me. I deeply enjoy that you lost interest :) It feels like there is a little hope in the world - maybe someday, my active spiritual work like spending hours per day to meditation, is gone, and I can live a normal life while still advancing :D I am not sure, whether it's your end result, but it could be a good end for something. For me, a little vacation from needing the meditation to calm down about the obstacles I constantly see, it would be very good - I could spend time with friends or go to the nature and feel relaxed. Actually I have to say that what you said is kind of enlightenment for me. Why to work 8 hours per day just to get this little enlightenment :D Maybe I could become a millionaire, when I did not feel this need.
I think when you start feeling this question about whether others have felt it, you could write a little article about this topic after some time has passed and you have seen the results - if it's new in the world or your neighbouring area, it could inspire people. I don't know, how to make it happen, but at least it's a little hope when this enlightenment is not disturbing you all the time.
About losing interest in work, I would suggest there are severe risks about this, things I have experienced, and I think you should work a little bit on discovering activities and environmental settings, in which you could participiate and earn the money. I have a theory that buddhism provides personal enlightenment, but christianity and science bring collective enlightenment and intellectual knowledge - intellectuals specialize in knowledge. In west, we become animals, kind of, if the enlightened people do not create a force grander than themselves - by becoming specialized and meditating through the revolutions, which were brought to us in times of enlightenment, the collective enlightenment of the west. Then, our own superpower appears, something like God above our heads, from our collective effort. There is no God if you don't believe in it. This collective enlightenment would hire us to jobs, where even enlightened people feel motivated, and also support people, who have lost interest in job, because of spiritual, thus shared reasons - if enlightened people lost interest in jobs, everybody definitely wins from this.
HI Tara, thank you for sharing.
I have never experienced sparkles (which do sound pretty good!) but I have definitely felt a wave like flow when I go through periods of feeling more and less connected.
I am OK with this.
For me the important thing is to keep a positive intention, and try to allow the process to continue in its own time.
A few weeks ago I heard a female voice as I was waking up from sleep that said quietly but firmly, "just get yourself out of the way", and this seemed to me like good advice.