Kundalini Discussion

Great topic for discussion. In the years since my awakening, I've had one failed marriage, two broken engagements, and a few other serious relationships that ended for one reason or another. I have experienced what you have described as "my vibration is both equally grounding and confronting for people." I have attributed this experience to two aspects of my being. The first is that I have cultivated, over the years, the ability to find commonality with all whom I encounter in life and not to confront them with any of the differences between us. This quality has allowed others to feel safe, comfortable, and respected in my presence.

On the other hand because of the second aspect of my being, an awakened Kundalini, people have sensed that I am uniquely different from others that they have known. Because this is not understandable to them, they have a natural fear of the unknown. As a result, there is a limit to my ability to find commonality with them. Hence, they, to use your words, "find my vibration confronting."

For example, following the ending of one of my engagements, I was talking with a friend about my confusion about why this happened. I explained that my ex-fiance felt threatened my me, I could not understand the reason for this since I said that I would always love, respect, and support her. I was shocked by my friend's response: "She was threatened by your unconditional love. You say that you will always love her and she hears that you will always love her and that there's nothing she can do to stop it. She felt a complete lack of control." Wow, I had to spend much time reflecting on that statement.

On the brighter side, I did spend some enjoyable time with a wonderful lady at a retreat last year. She had a Kundalini awakening and we connected on many levels. Unfortunately (for me), she was in a committed relationship that was very fulfilling. Alas, such is life.

Thanks for posting this.

Always loved Krishnamurti, his awakening was energy based as well. I've heard him say: "I touched the source of all energy".

Hi Dean, love this honest sharing...we often hear the silver lining narrative when the brutality of the process is very real. At least you feel angry, that's better than disassociation 😅...the anger is valid. We could say on a soul level we agreed to incarnate into this lifetime to hold a higher frequency for humanity, but still, the human likes to be comfortable and I can certainly say that my journey has been very uncomfortable and very unpleasant at times. Although, a corner has been turned and it's been significantly better for around a year now. The usual spiritual tropes don't typically apply to KA's, even though they make sense.

how long have you been in the process? I was quite disassociated for many years and just this year I've started feeling more in my body, heart chakra has finally stopped it's painful twisting, I think the anger is a great sign actually...when I started getting angry shifts happened, boundaries started coming back online. The soldier monk phase will shift...it's not fun to go through the purge, but I have to say, well I feel a helluva lot lighter and more liberated...surely that's worth it? Lessons to not be repeated in the next incarnation(should I choose to return)...for that, I'm grateful. Find a channel for the anger, playing sports really helped me.