Experience with a being???
Just an experience i had when i was at the peak of my breakdown..
I was walking around town,trying to find a way to fix the destructive wave that was hitting me from all sides,manifesting as total chaos in all sections of my life....
A thought of the '' barakiel'' crosses my mind and i do an attempt to reach for them mentally...
Soon,something like a force field starts to descent on me.. I could feel what was happening,yet without knowing what it is...
Then it started to messing around witb my brain... I could hear clicks and some other sounds,like someone was using tools....
Anyway, i kept walking,being in a state of '' who are you, what are you doing to me,is it safe?i'm scared,what's going on,etc...
I was scared..Maybe the being had good intentions and it was trying to unblock or fix damaged nerves but after five minutes i used a mantra to clear everything around me including the being... Then it stopped..
In any case,an interesting experience to share...
https://spireason.neocities.org/ - I have this theory of "sine and cosine", an acceptance of fluctuation of the Mind.
In my theory, one should not do extreme protection: when you block and block and block the negative, you do not establish any laws for it to break; in interpretations of Hermetic Principles - you see the negative realities in your mind and you block them. This creates a cramp. With all my negative experience, valuable in Viking's life :D, I found this: let go of all the protection and head directly to death, once you have solve the initial ideal state (id), where the reality keeps you in childhood. Let it actually become "reality" - but what you sense is the future, not now. The method works like Deep Night Itself: you actually enter it. The case is that you experience it all, but it's a danger, not a reality - for real, your survival instinct aligned with the natural law to keep you surviving, as long as possible: by letting this to "reality", it's actually real in potential reality. But for your instincts, and higher guidance, your death is hard and your permanent death would be, in most cases, impossible (i.e. not reincarnating) - so, if you create this reality, then in the life logic life is "yes" and death is "no", so the logic, once it appears, would head to life ..naturally, you create your death or injury - I call each injury "death" in some sense -, you head to actual impossibility, instead of jumping up and down in the potentials: this means, you enter an adventure instead of protecting your home when enemies are attacking the market.
As a result:
When you head reality itself into what is impossible, or so bad that it avoids it, you hit the actual red button: impossible reality would disappear, just as if you said the name of a demon / did show it a cross. Reality would learn from such experiences as it's logic would improve (sorry I'm a scientist, so "logic"). https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=abjE9Qx0O60 [Two Steps From Hell - To Glory (Invincible)]
When you keep the cramp, you avoid the unknown, and instead, you deny many possibilities close to the danger - you do not actually hit the logical impossibility, a deduction, but you try to keep your reality based on inductive principle - for example you cannot pass close enough. The impossibility is rather theoretical and you do not program the cosmos and your instinct to avoid it. This is a very stressful situation for me.