Kundalini Awakening and Darkness
In my early 20's, I experienced a kundalini awakening. I was sitting in meditation and heard the rattle of a snake and then a force from the base of my spine start to coil upwards and shoot out through the top of my head. I felt that I was part of everything--there was no separation between my, the Earth and the sky. What was even more amazing was that when I opened my eyes, I still felt connected. That feeling lasted until later that evening a friend of mine came over and she wanted me to do reiki on her. The moment I connected to her energy, everything left me. That feeling of oneness was gone and Ive never been able to get it back. Even now, 15 plus years later, when I close my eyes--nothing. I used to be able to control my vision of my third eye and it would expand as I breathed deeper into meditation. Now, there is only blackness. Has anyone ever experienced this before? Did I burn a hole in my chakra? Did I overstimulate my pineal gland? Any thoughts would be appreciated.
Since the title is mentioning the darkness,i will share one of my experiences..
I remember i was calculating some infos from my contacts-guides,telling me about love etc....
My responce was '' okay..But i need love as well.. ''
Somedays after,while in kitchen,i started to feel a physical discomfort to my belly, which was reflecting to my back as well...
A song that praises the night starts to play in my head.. An old favourite one..
I went out and when i looked at the glorious nightsky,i was overwhelmed with emotions of love.. It felt like a motherly figure, hosting all existence to her lap..
Mother night rocks....