Kundalini & Love
I'd love to hear how others in the group have dealt with romantic relationships in their kundalini awakenings. I've found that my lack of tolerance for inauthentic relating as well as being able to see people so clearly has proved to be very challenging, not that I'm not tolerant to some degree, in fact there is enormous compassion and having to work very hard on boundaries, as if you see clearly but at the same the filter has been hard to reinforce...it seems my vibration is both equally grounding and confronting for people, although much improved 9 years in.
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Great topic for discussion. In the years since my awakening, I've had one failed marriage, two broken engagements, and a few other serious relationships that ended for one reason or another. I have experienced what you have described as "my vibration is both equally grounding and confronting for people." I have attributed this experience to two aspects of my being. The first is that I have cultivated, over the years, the ability to find commonality with all whom I encounter in life and not to confront them with any of the differences between us. This quality has allowed others to feel safe, comfortable, and respected in my presence.
On the other hand because of the second aspect of my being, an awakened Kundalini, people have sensed that I am uniquely different from others that they have known. Because this is not understandable to them, they have a natural fear of the unknown. As a result, there is a limit to my ability to find commonality with them. Hence, they, to use your words, "find my vibration confronting."
For example, following the ending of one of my engagements, I was talking with a friend about my confusion about why this happened. I explained that my ex-fiance felt threatened my me, I could not understand the reason for this since I said that I would always love, respect, and support her. I was shocked by my friend's response: "She was threatened by your unconditional love. You say that you will always love her and she hears that you will always love her and that there's nothing she can do to stop it. She felt a complete lack of control." Wow, I had to spend much time reflecting on that statement.
On the brighter side, I did spend some enjoyable time with a wonderful lady at a retreat last year. She had a Kundalini awakening and we connected on many levels. Unfortunately (for me), she was in a committed relationship that was very fulfilling. Alas, such is life.