What I've Learned
I've heard stories and read about the problems folks have with this awakening. I cannot give advice, I can only draw from my personal experience. Since it was 47 years ago, there is and always was a serene acceptance, I spent two months afterwards in ecstatic bliss. There was never a fight to hold on to my old self. Total acceptance was apparently my saving grace. There was a deep longing that was finally satisfied through Love and Trust. I let it do whatever it chose to do. A part of me was for a few seconds.... alarmed, it feared it's own demise and while it could be said it died, I rather like to think it took its proper place in my life, it lost its power and accepted it too could be loved.
For myself this is a story about the great Love and Forgiveness that swept through me one night 47 years ago.
Addendum: I've never had a teacher, never meditated, my story comes from the heart. Take care~
Howard
Thank you