Devi
The previous summer,i requested from Devi to shift my kundalini energies to love..
In fact i asked for the human kind of love.. The one between lovers....
Some weeks after,the current kicks in...
It was exactly what i asked for...80s ballad songs became my best friend.. And since my system was full of kundalini energy,the experience was really amazing...
All i could feel all day was love.. Even at night...
To cut the long story short,i think Devi is active in my life... And when i think of her,my head turns on it's own to spot the red colours around me.. Napkins,stickers,clothes,lighters,bags,if there is something red near me,my head will turn to spot it.. (it happens,but i'm not doing it)
I had some other experiences with her as well..
Visions,and energy work
And it was her that i adressed in my thread 'sahasrara sensations'..
Maybe a part of the easement of late is that things have been so tough for so long that a part of me just broke and said **** it. Kind of got worn down to the point of just not caring anymore. Sounds nihilistic maybe but I guess there's something to just throwing in the towel.